これは Room 707 です

2008-09-19T02:41:00.002+08:00

Hmmm I dont know what made me return.... I guess its bcoz of some worthwhile things which needs to recorded down has come by. These months have been of self reflection, self discovery and relating to the outside world. I discovered not only what's and who's me but also the surroundings, what and who are around me. Met a interestingly diverse yet similar bunch of people in my new institute.

2008-05-28T17:31:00.003+08:00

No more blog entries henceforth. Come back here only for event updates (if there're even any) or maybe some picture gallery(facebook does it better).

*Shut Down*

2008-05-25T14:07:00.003+08:00

Thanks to the many who have helped me for bday pt last saturday namely David, James, Lz, Mel, Debs, Wei Li, Jo. Kitchen was a messy place to be in I swear. Thanks to those who found time to attend the pt, sorry if there were any hiccups along the way, I swear I will cook up a more grandeur and better pt the next time round!! So Just watch out for it people!!! Thank you for being part of my 21st. I loved one particular present the most, well it wasnt anything costly, it was a simple present. A receptionist from a company where I usually go to made me this bday card which was so cute! So sweet of her and I was touched by her actions even though we barely knew each other... 'dhl boy' ... lol

Hope u are able to ride thru the storm of yours. I dont speak to you very often anymore. But I still regard u as someone close. Go to the institution you feel most comfortable in, that is if u know which it will be. I will get some help for you... Not as much as in the past but still some assistance in a way or another... Like I said before, smile always! If I am ever needed, I will be somewhere close by...

2008-05-16T01:09:00.001+08:00

Hmmm.... I need help...

2008-04-30T23:15:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I think that I know and understand __. So well till I know where my life could end with no remorse, with happiness and with a sense of satisfaction. Sometimes, I feel that I do not know __ at all, like a stranger, an outsider, a passer-by, a person whom fate didnt bring. I do not know why, why have I fallen so deep... So fucking deep in this pit of darkness lately... I placed too much hopes in something which I knew months back that it will never work out or happen. I knew it and I even told myself to end this misery, but I still held on to whatever frays that this very rope of hope might have to offer me. I feel so dumb and stupid for my relentless chase for nothing... Nothing... Things didnt reciprocate... I am disappointed...

I am angry, very frustrated with.... Myself... I am the one who needs to wake up, step in a reality again stop living this fairytale that's not happening for real. To think I can offer advice to your problems, I am laughing at myself coz I cant even solve mine. I am a JOKE, a living JOKE, a Friggin JOKE in reality...

What the fuck have I been doing I really wonder... To think I wanted to even ask __ that critical question...

I having feelings and I still am fond of ___ . Are you?

2008-04-21T02:36:00.002+08:00

I have successfully ORDed from the biggest bane of a male Singaporean, NS. Well thats my opinion of NS although it was coupled with loadsa fun times which do not really last in the process. Bid everyone farewell on Friday afternoon thereafter collected my IC. Met up with cc in the evening, accompanied for her shopping trip at bugis for her new outfit. Had dinner at Central's Manhattan Fish, serviced seemed to be alil slower and retard than that of PS. Oh well probably coz its more crowded at Central.

Celebrated Tze's bday on Sat evening at his place. Played the new PS3 game, ROCK BAND. Hella fun with the percussion set, guitar and the microphone. Crap makes me feel like wanting to get one too. Haha ps 2 will just do fine with Guitar Freaks or Guitar Hero for me. Met up with the Dota group for a few games. Still Melee str based heroes are meant for me. Cant seem to use any other heros properly.

What have been doing lately?? Well I frequent the library for materials and research to try to expand my portfolio. Reading up around for ideas and inspirations for more works to be created. Spending time at Bras Basah with David to accompany him to study and prepare for As this year end. Trying to visit various exhibits and art galleries for enrichment and awareness of a different vision and perception of this world.

I am in the midst of completing my new outlook. A new fashion statement exclusive only to myself. I can envision how it will turn out in the end. I just wanna look decently differently unique. That's all... I dont ask for too much... Do I?

2008-04-02T00:14:00.002+08:00

How does it feel when I tell u I got 16 days of nonsense to go thru? How will it feel after 19 days are over? How will this 16 days of NonSense turn out? How did I go thru this 1 yr 11 mths of NonSense? Well (N)on(S)ense is inevitably the biggest mistake a male singapore goes thru in his life... Totally...

Just came home from Janell Yeo's Concert at the esplanade. Who's she? Well I dont really know her background but she's violin prodigy currently sitting at the age of 14. Yeah indeed she plays the violin beyond any normal violinist would. Enjoyed the concert with lz with a good mix of slow tunes as well as cheery ones.

Celebration lz's bday party at Miss Clarity Cafe at Thomson Road. It was a really a loud event thanks to us, shooters. Made a hella noise since the start of the event from 7pm right til the end of the party at 10.30pm. Went for drinks at our old hang out at Iguana. Didnt down much coz most of us already lost steam and energy after we reached clarke quay. LOL. Thanks everyone for making the event a successful one.

2008-03-24T02:00:00.003+08:00

Oh yeah I got accepted into La Salle. Guess that's where I'll be the next 4 years. Thanks for everyone's support, comments and encouragement on my art works and rough pieces. Thanks everyone!

Caught Leap Years on Sun afternoon with Cin. It was a good movie indeed. Well tears rolled when KS read out Jeremy's letter on Li-ann's wedding day... It was really touching then. But to have this happen in reality, I dont think its ever its possible with today's level of technology and communications. Oh well, a fairytale only possible in the past where that much fate and trust could co exist. Havent been to Holland V for dinner ever since our last time there when Cin drove. Cant find the Italian restaurant featured on makan sutra the other time. Zzz...

Met up with Ming Ming, who just came from NY to NTU for her attachment. Its been 3 years since I last saw her, ever since she flew to NY for her studies. Caught up and had dinner at this Jap place down Millenia Walk, Rakuzen. The sashimi salad is huge ass bowl and the food there's fresh too. Must try it another time and burn my pocket!

Caught Comedy of Errors at La Salle casted by La Salle students. Well their acting skills are pretty remarkable taking into consideration they are only year 2 students. It was a good act although I didnt read the book before hand. Met up with the shooters at Khatib that nite on thurs and gave Jin Rong a surprise Bday treat at Macs! LOL, walked down to chong pang after that for some nasi lemak sampling. The chicken wings rocks!! Woo hooo I wanna go satisfy taste buds again!! Played dota after that till abt 5 odd. Sorry Dan and Derrick, didnt join u guys for K Box on Good Friday's afternoon coz I only woke up at about 2pm.

Had a dinner at Kuishin Bo with Uncle Mark's family on Good Friday. Ate till my tummy almost exploded after filling it with lots of snow crab! Spent the rest of the evening with JJ and TYT at Timbre: arts house. Its been awhile since I chilled and had drinks with music played at the background. We should have this kinda outings often. Chilling out rocks big time.

2008-03-17T12:45:00.003+08:00

Had a ride on the Sg flyer last thursday with my unit. Okay, it travels really slow and enable u to see 360 degrees all around you. You feel that you are top of the world, looking down at all like pawnlings doing work at ground. Cars, buildings, people below you feel inferior to you. It was great ride alright.

Caught the new Evangelion 1.0 movie at Cine yesterday. Well its the remake of the animation series of 1995, with better graphics and animation. Angels featured here are Sachel, Shamshel, Ramiel and at the end, Kaoru. Will await for the sequel to this teenage memories of anime.

Happy belated bday Kevin!

2008-03-15T13:05:00.003+08:00

Who do I admire?

Interview at La salle quite alright, I suppose. Will know the results of my application in abt 2 weeks? Hope it will be soon though. Haha... Wait and see. During the interview, this lady's work impressed and drew all my attention. Well she was sitting just beside me during the whole interview and got by the name of Zen (I think..). She was petite, pretty and possessed a face with a level of attitude. Back to her work, it was tessaltion of patterns and designs on a piece of cloth. The test print was about A2 in size, detailed, minute and very catchy. Her actual was a 3 metre piece. I was just amazed how she managed to got by doing that. Well coz this is something I have not come across at all. I want to do something better than hers! Gotta stress this again, her art piece is as beautiful as she is... =x...

After yesterday, it brought me back to think it over. I told a few close buddies that I always admire people esp females who have culinary skills, able to play a musical instrument and an artist. So far, Debbie is the only one who's able to do all. Haha..

Please feel free to enter my gallery to comment, critic, feedback me about my works. Any improvements, degrading, praises are much appreciated. Thank You!

2008-03-14T10:54:00.004+08:00

Hi Everyone!

My Mini Gallery of Sketchs and Works

http://s189.photobucket.com/albums/z54/extaror/Art%20Works/?albumview=slideshow

Do feel free to comment and critic any pieces.

Thanks!

Bren

2008-03-10T02:11:00.003+08:00

Sibei Tia are words to describe my situation. Woke up on Saturday morning to realise tt I sprained my ankle. Ok the situation didnt improve at all over these days. Had problems at work while working overnite on sat when climbing the stairs. ZzZz... Couldnt go out today, sorry guys... Cool I am gg to be alil disabled for the time being again... Lets see how it goes at the clinic later in the morning.

How many days has it been?? I dont know... and I dont give a fuck either...

2008-03-08T09:52:00.003+08:00

Ya thanks....

Thanks to the Encik Mas Selemat escapade, we gotta man overnight hours. Well personally I dont mind at all. I like it at work when there's no one around. With just you and the controller. A sense of peace is developed overtime thru the wee hours with no tom dick harry shit bothering you. But just the management of doing it over the weekend without a off day sucks big time. The hell, I was supposed to be on Sunday and just that I willingly took the midnite duty. Fuck it, I am left with 1.5 months to decay there. Who gives a fuck anyway... Management of manpower seriously requires a overhaul, a review, a a revolution, just... SOME changes for fuck sake... We are fat in manpower yet we still see overmanning for some people. For what fuck shit?? Even though u wanna take advantage of the guy, but it isnt in this manner. Something is wrong... not with the ground crew, but up there... Something I swear...

Went for Class Gathering yest evening. Not a bad turn up rate, about 10 pax in total. Wow, to be able to gather 10 ppl at this point is no easy feat. Thank you everyone for turning up although lz and I arrived alil late. Agreed with Byron said on the bus ride back. This class is too diversed. Everyone is unique in his/her individual ways. Very difficult to find a common interest or an activity that we can do together. Will see how the next turn up rate will be...

Alright firmed up, I am gonna let it go this time. Pls shoot me, kill me, skin me, fuck me, screw my head, do whatever you want if I am to stupidly hold on to anything . Will retrieve back what's mine before I do anything...

2008-03-08T00:40:00.007+08:00

Nice Crock I mean Clock..!
Get outta e box and think big!

Hold Time in your hands
FuZZ as always so FuZZy
Dynamic Lady

I like Mel's hair style~

2008-03-02T17:21:00.004+08:00

YAWNs....

I am back from an afternoon nap Zzz... Was at Bt Timah Nature Reserve this morning with Cin. It had been a very long time since I went there. Probably the last time I went there was with her too since she stays close to there. Feels good to be there with everyone else on a sunday morning.. Just that I was drenched when I got home...

Went to the NATAS fair yest afternoon, got a whole bag of brochures and pamphlets for my Japan trip. Got a box of colour pencils too, 48 PC water colour ones from Fabel Castell! Yeah finally more shades of colours and new pieces! Caught a Comedy at the Substation. Its my first for this kinda black comedy. Really interesting and can say that I really liked it alot. Wont mind attending similar ones in future besides my attendance for mainstream plays, musicals, instruments and dances.

Been sleeping alot recently, probably to recuperate for the sleep lost for the past week.... Or isit I havent Been to STARBUCKS for my Venti!! Hahaha, I cant rule out this possibility though.

This 2 weeks will be the busiest and HELL-LA-RIDE for me. Gonna complete and finish whatever I planned to do for my portfolio for my Interview. *Prays that All will go well that day and I can get into La Salle*

Met up with Cherie on Thurs.. Many aeons since I last saw her. Took some time to look for the Arts House at City Hall. Found it and found the gallery which I took interest in. Wow, a wonderful array of photos from "Dance me thru the night". Although I do not understand artistic yoga-ic poses and half nude pictures of humans, the photos taken and arrangement of the exhibit was good. I am really impressed and see some future of me setting up a similar place too.. *I dream too much*

2008-02-27T00:35:00.003+08:00

Siew Mai, Egg Tart and Dua Pao GA LIAO!

I got to know of this local production after a friend's recommendation last year. Read about it on the papers. Browsing thru the sistic website and finally a person to accompany me, I managed to catch the show last weekend. It was a wonderful performance with humour, singing and superb acting. Our history in anothers' spectacles and another perspective was portrayed in the show. I am not a fan of local play works, but this one took me off the seat. So I'd recommend everyone, young and old to go watch it at the esplanade! I am sure after watching this, you will feel that national day will be around the corner. And you would end the day thinking NDP should include the dim sum dollies too.

Bought a new top from Britsh India. They are having a storewide discount up to 70%. So the prices are more reasonable now. Finally a orange collared shirt, tt's what I have been looking for over time.

It seems that I have some plans for the next couple of months. Not life goals, but some things I wish to do, and settle once and for all. More importantly is to end this game of falses and deceit which I am going thru... ... We will see... ...

2008-02-24T03:08:00.000+08:00

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	High
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	Medium
Lust:	Very Low
Pride:	High

Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

2008-02-24T02:56:00.003+08:00

Newest Caramel Mochiatto!! Sweettt
Venti!
Kopi Art?? I wanna learn tt too!
Draw this!
And this!
The bridge!
Welcome to Central Mall!
Central Mall! My hangout!
It lights up!
Pimpled Tree!

2008-02-24T02:45:00.003+08:00

The Usual hang Out!
Where to go??
Are you drunk my dear?
MOS
Beautiful!
Excellent sight of reflection!
The Umbrella of Artemis!
People!
Some wine for you senoir?
And my dear golden ale!

2008-02-24T01:33:00.003+08:00

I need to chill...

I had been pretty temperamental the past few days... Dont ask why coz I aint gonna answer your qns unless u aint tom dick harry stephanie whom I knew yesterday morning. Yeah get what I mean?

Sometimes I dont understand why people do things so slowly and also lack the basic sense of urgency at work. I really hate working with such inefficient people. Total anti climax when everyone's so professional in the job and here comes 1 odd ball. I sound harsh here against that person, but I certainly hope some improvement can be made in the next month. If not, you'd be pretty detestable at work.

Coffee, Libary, Sketchbook, photography, colouring and alcohol... Well this is my life, what I speak, hear, see, cosume revolves around the above mentioned. I need inspiration, inspiration cannot be attained when I in the 4 walls of my room. Inspiration is abundant outside, yeah outside with people, nature, machines, technology, voices and movement. That's when inspiration and a sense of zen is achieved to generate inspiration. It does not come to the mind just like that. Sometimes you need to feel it, and appreciate it with your 5 basic senses before the inspiration can be realised by your mind.

Passed by Crazy Elephant while I was in Clarke Quay to do some Sg Nite Life phototaking. Came across a quote displayed on the LCD Billboard saying, "What do aeroplanes and women have in common?" Figured that out?? I certainly do and understand if you would take it to the context of the hokkien dialect. But However I hope the person reading this will forgive me for what I said. It's meant to be a joke and something I come across, not on purpose to put you down.

Just came back from Debbie's Bday, well haha can say I didnt know any of her other friends at all besides edlyn whom I dont really talk to in pri school. Well thankfully an old schoolmate came along and broke my silence. Haha thanks Audrey! Yeah Deb's selfmade pastries were the best!

2008-02-22T02:34:00.000+08:00

歌曲名称:你很爱他
歌手名称:F.I.R.飞儿乐团

当你决定
你要离开我
我没有说什么
就当自立自由
有好几次
我都想挽留
苦求也没有用
就当作是寂寞
只有我能明白
他的温柔
对你是种解脱
只想要告诉我
谁是你的最爱
其实你很爱他
对我的惩罚
说你没有想他
是可怜我吧
我也没有借口
只能放手
不敢奢求
你说爱我
其实你很爱他
他很温柔吗
其实你很想他
就说出口吧
我也不想多说
捂住耳朵
不想再次听到你说
你很爱他当你决定
其实你很爱他
对我的惩罚
说你没有想他
是可怜我吧
我也没有借口
只能放手
不敢奢求
你说爱我
其实你很爱他
他很温柔吗
其实你很想他
就说出口吧
我也不想多说
捂住耳朵
不想再次听到你说
你很爱他
你很爱他

2008-02-21T23:19:00.003+08:00

The stars were a brilliant streak, that went well with a bot of alcohol. I am gonna set my heart and MY MIND straight on something that I dont wish to do... I'll see how it goes... I got more things at hand than to go bother other ppl's problems... Yeah fuck it.

2008-02-21T16:54:00.001+08:00

just another fuck up hour...

2008-02-20T11:50:00.001+08:00

Hey I still got 14 seconds more to take more photos!
CJ's Wedding, both bride and groom are vertically unchallenged!
Yeah the madd ppl!

2008-02-19T14:28:00.002+08:00

Had much of a confusion in my head for the pass 2 days. I dont know what I was thinking about, not random things, not things that are too straightforward, just that my mind was blank intermittently the whole time. I shldn't be classified under trouble, but rather of a regret and remorse state for what I have done. Nevertheless everything seems fine... for now... Wonder how long this "fine" status would last, or rather end... In any case, I'd still try to put on that smile of mine and put others' smiles on their faces whenever possible... =)

After visiting various paper art, I still love sketching. I like it messy!! Charcoal brings out the best shading using ur fingers, cotton cloth, and kneaded rubber. Its thick and variable, that's why I like it as I can further control the depth of shading. The other will be paper cut! I love the final product of papercut. The process of cutting is hard work as there are plenty of small and minute details of the papercut.

Went down the streets of dhoby ghaut and city hall in search of inspiration. Visited various museums and galleries such as MICA, SAM, NHM, Stamps, NAFA, viewing the various pieces. Also took a stroll and short climbs up fort canning in search of urban nature for sketching.

2008-02-19T02:28:00.004+08:00

Fort Canning Park & Singapore!!

Singapore Largest Mirror!!
INverted Stairs!
Rubber Ducks!
New Duck!
Old Duck !

Gonna draw this out!!

This Fern is as tall as you!
Upclose and personal!
Hey little boy!
Chilli!
Chilli!!

Like a texture of cloth
Thorny Bark!
It's shedding its skin, i mean bark
Imploded in the inside

2008-02-15T15:59:00.007+08:00

Singapore Airshow 2008

Presenting the Black Knights!

Changi Exhibition Centre
Chinook CH 47D
Apache Backside
I miss Tekong~
Black Knights! Smoke On! Go!

Singapore Changi Exhibition Centre

AH 64 Apache Frontside

Woke up so early in the morning just to see what I see every other weekday.. But this time its slightly different coz I am a spectator, not part of the background crew of the Singapore Air Show. Low clouds stayed thru out the morning so the BLACK KNIGHTS (bk) could not perform there vertical displays. Saddening isnt it. The show was quite okay, but I might consider to get tickets for the public viewing coz I want to see the other aircraft manufacturers' Display too! Was a very very windy day. Had lunch at Waraku Central Mall with the siblings Joel and Joelyn. Caught Jumper in the evening with weili and tseng. Shopped around town and went to Glutton's Bay for dinner. Haha spent alot there coz we inherited the Glutton's disease... The journey to the Esplanade was disrupted by the Chingay Procession which sealed many roads and blocked many entrances and exits!

2008-02-15T05:14:00.009+08:00

I am VIP!
Big!

That's me!

Guess who's the new entry to the family!

Next Stop... T1??

Alright the question boils down, why was I at the airport? Send my gay buddy off, Alvin to Adelaide for his studies.. Crap lost 1 mahjong khakee just like that! He should be fine with the white people over there, hope he doesnt come back early or anything. Coz that will mean he drop out of the uni =x. Will see him again at the end of the year! We will be waiting for you, Alvin!

2008-02-11T01:55:00.000+08:00

Hmmm i guess both siblings almost got a scolding from our mom this early afternoon. Woke Up pretty early for a sunday morning. Both my bro and I were totally groggy and lethargic probably due to the lack of sleep. We were dragging our feet everywhere we went, every temple we visited. We just sat and laze anywhere and everywhere after we were done. BUT BUT BUT however, guess what's e miracle tt made everything normal again... FOOD, yeah F O O D, food. Perked up us during lunch and everything just went back to normal as it should be. The great wonders of food that food can do to one's life...

Read some horoscope prediction for the rest of the year and a couple of years for myself. For this year, male rabbits should :
1) Control their emotions
2) Refrain from conflicts with own family members (I am a victim of this frequently)
3) Avoid Red and White events i.e. weddings, funeral

Months that are bad include June... (that's a holiday period boy....) The rest are all pretty average with a few good ones. 2008 is an average year, 2009 would be a downslide and 2010 a pretty refreshing one! That's all that I have read for myself. I heard and believe of point 3 from elders. So maybe wedding invitations and funerals announcement, I would not attend physically but spiritually instead...

Went to vivo this afternoon and... I ADDED stuff my shopping list!! badbadbad.... But its necessary to get a new pair of shoes, followed by a new tee. Others would include a bag, formal vest and a few design catalouges. Woohoo I found some direction to shopping this time round.

2008-02-07T03:47:00.000+08:00

Year of the Rat!! Here comes Mickey!!

Happy New Year everyone! Best wishes may everyone have good health this year!

Woohoo I havent been at work since Saturday coz I was on leave and the sqn stand down on the eve of the lunar new year. Yeah, how I wish it could be like that everyday, but it wont happen though... Yeah not gonna happen I swear. But its okay, everything will be fine with a smile on your face! Came up with some anger management solutions for myself.. Firstly, upon landing yourself in a problem, its best not to let your mind dwell on the consequence of the problem. It'll be best to come up with a solution. This will allow your mind to be less tensed as you are in the control of the situation. I have a bad temper due to my impatience sometimes. And so I developed a few solutions which include my book of ideas and random brainstorms and emotions. I created this book to pin down any ideas I may think of at various venues with different emotionasand mental status. Keeping oneself occupied during a wait is the best cure!! ^^

2008-01-28T04:12:00.000+08:00

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2008-01-24T00:29:00.000+08:00

I thought that I was in the midst of recovery from this depression, yet now I realised that I'd fallen deeper into this hell hole. It's not what work has done to me but rather what the people around me have actually done. Screw those 2 and 3 face bastards and bitches at work. Slap those who try to backstab. Once again to tell everyone I aint frustrated or angry, I am actually perturbed and disappointed of what the state of my workplace situation has degradaded to. Utterly disgusted sometimes and annoyed... I foresee that hatred and revenge will soon surface in me...

My hypertension history, I can feel that's its gonna relapse soon... Can see that it aint due to my health but the things happening in my life... The last round I got diagnosed was during JC when I always get agitated everytime I was in school, so pissed with incompetent teachers and inefficient ppl around me. Always wondering how the fuck tt person become a teacher with such lousy standards and that I m paying my taxes to feed her. NOW's its the same situation happening but with different subjects placed in the similar equation. Hence, same equation at the end of the day... I get agitated and my hypertension relapses...

2008-01-12T13:35:00.000+08:00

F**k Up

Once again, screw my squadron.. F**king hell that I m not gg on course... What shift is there to help when everyone has reverted back on days... Wtf is going on or was going on in this screw loose environment.. I got no f**king idea too... I am really infuriated yet disappointed simultaneously.... I am totally cheesed off to the maximum. This feeling iswose than feeling cheated but also I totally lost the motivation to look forward to what's coming in the months to come... I lost my drive to do my things properly... I am tired.... I wanna wash my hands off of all this nonsense... After reflection and meditaton, nothing seems to be working, just that I'd cultivated a mind of mine for revenge and rebel...

I am tired... of all this worthless ponders... coz I cant do anything to solve my problems... F**k....

2008-01-07T01:13:00.000+08:00

Cheesed Off!!!

Alright there's many things tt I would wish to bitch about ever since I stepped foot onto my workzone again. Too many things I wanna say, I dunno where to begin.... I am feeling totally cheesed off and F up... How can I go thru the next 3 mths??? Definitely not with a peace of mind, gonna be a unhappy ending to my 2 years, and a total disappointment...

I am gonna lock my future posts somewhere else... Probably come back here when everything's better... hopefully the day will come when things get better....

2008-01-02T01:34:00.000+08:00

Shinnen omedetou gozaimasu!

Tuned to bei ji chuen by FIR

Back to work in about 7.5 hrs time... Zzz... Cant believe it these 3 mths just pass, being the best of times to end off 2007... Very thankful and grateful indeed... What have I done?? Read abit here and there, watch lotsa shows and tv, being more informed of both local and foreign affairs, lets see, Mapling to 4th job??, physio and.... and.... and.... hmmm what else?? *shrugs*

Yucks back to work... LOL... 3 months and 20 days aint short... BUT still it will pass... Stop brudding over what's gonna happen Nana, make it e best like you'd always do... Zzz... Self-inspiration, hope it works....

Gotta choose my school soon and get a place... If not I'd loathing around and got nowhere to go.... SIM? LaSalle? where?? *shrugs once more* Go for what I wanted, always wanted, to be in e arts scene and not what the society wants, Nana. Hmmm maybe tt shld've been e way when I chose my path after O lvls. But I had my good times when I was in JC... *nvr 4gets shooting club*... Bless me....

Time to remove my earrings and ear studs, put on ear sticks, act good and be a good loyal servant...Dotsss... I'd probably be charged for sarcasm... LOL...

I was whitened and astonished after reading feng shui reading for rabbit borned in my birth year... OMG, oh gosh, not a good year from what I see... Avoid Water* i gotta not train swimming?? or go for biath/triath this year?? yeah true since i gotta recuperate my dear right knee too* No investments in shares and properties, crap lemme withdraw my stakes in shares rightaway... Lovelife's gonna bad unless u are really serious, no blind dates and internet dates O_O * havent done tt since... since... I dunno... since a long long time* What else... basically, my wealth, business, career, relationship for this year aint gonna be any good... Unless some Species of Goat comes along to help me... which i dont know any... So this is gonna one spending year for me!!! *I am really superstitious*

Time for some beauty regen...

2007-11-12T03:04:00.000+08:00

Learn to walk, run, swim then fly???

Tuned to Fa Xian Ai by JJ and Jin Sha

I am back! Well not that I flew to somewhere or anything, just that I decided to be here. Alright lets see .... oh yes I am in e state of recovery from my surgery, soo far soo good no mishaps, no further tear of the acl, no nothing... Just my physio at TTSH and my own physio at gym. Yeah!!! Must recover quick and get ready for next year's races. I am pretty disappointed to miss out biath next year though... But I'll be back that's for sure...

I am so so fair now, I look pale.. I look fat, not lean anymore. I feel so irritated when I look into e mirror... I am so obsessed with myself and how I look lately. Vanity aint supposed to be in my vocab but it is! Haha. Trying to go sun tan but to no avail, disappointing weather conditions persisted lately. I cant run so tts why fats getting all over my face.... ARGH! But its okay, its temporary, it wont be the same again when I start over again!

Sometimes I feel being like that, as LIKE THIS at home and having plenty of free time is tremendously fruitful for me. I have got back in touch with the world, improved myself by reading and watching news. Also got in touch with my friends who drifted away, pulling each and everyone back! I needed a break then, and yeah I am certainly pleased and grateful as such.

Read a book lately titled , "why women cant read maps and why men dont listen". Thanks to James. Very very interesting I must say. From the book I realised I fell in the category where it described ,"majority of females", and not in the category saying, "majority of men". Astounding?? not really coz I have all the while felt and confirmed I am more feminine than masculine. I still preserve masculine qualitie like my aggressiveness, hot temperness as well as spatial abilites. Haha, well what's that word to sum me up....... oh yes, HYBRID... Probably I am one hybrid.

And I am still aint ready for anything or something. I am very happy being what I am. as an individual for my friends, as a pillow to those who have lost theirs or dont have any from the start. I love myself, my family and friends! Thanks everyone!

2007-10-12T10:28:00.000+08:00

Just to wish to share this..

Tuned to Rhythm Emotion by Two-Mix (Gundam Wing)

Been cooped at home lately and for the coming weeks too. So the only source of exposure I get from the world outside is either the TV or the Internet. Was watching TV after lunch on Wednesday, tuned to CNA and found this show I Do. Very interesting show indeed coz it shows the whole wedding process of the couple, from the venue, arrangement, preparations all the wayyy to the food!

The most exciting and captivating part of the show was the food segment. Why?? well just say I inherited a glutton's appetite. This particular episode featured a italian groom andd slovakian lady. That's a hard combi from what I saw coz italians have a fussy taste bud and they are only loyal to their pasta and pizzas! Haha 1 interesting food I saw was cabbage rolls. What's so nice?? its nicely wrapped with a leaf and packed with meat, cheese and all sorts. Sounds like ur spring rolls over here. What's more its BAKED!! in cheese and tomato sauce I think... Yummy. The wedding was a day wedding style, church 1st then the buffet!! Their 'red packets' are handled in forms of cheques and envelopes of cash. So its basically the same as our local weddings just tt we use RED packets and no cheques! lol

What drawn my attention is the us of buffet for the wedding dinner/lunch. I really wanna do tt next time for my wedding and its gonna be this menu!

Still comes in 8 course (maybe I might make 9-10 course after typing)

1) Caesar's and Potato Salad
2) Suckling Pig and Peking Duck
3) Seafood Tempura
4) Kong Ba Pao
5) Dim Sum Assortments
6) Abalone and Scallops with Bed Vegetables
7) Yakitori Chicken Balls and Chicken Sticks
8) Spagetti Bolognaise
9) Durian and Choco Cream Puff
10) Birds Nest Egg Tarts

Hmmm sounds like it needs refinement in future, its ok coz I aint getting married now anyway, still got another decade or so to plan!

2007-10-05T10:51:00.000+08:00

Back Home...

Tuned to tui hou by Jay Chou

Went for ACL surgery for my right knee 2 days back... Wow, it was one hella experience. Not because of the pain after the op but of the anaestatic effect... Made me nauseaus, lost my appetite, my head couldnt function properly, and I only wanted to sleep 4eva. Finally after about 36 hrs, I became normal, only to realise that I am very immobile as my right leg is casted, unable to move freely and all i got is 2 crutches and my left leg to support.

My deepest apologies to my parents who sacrificed their time and sleep to take care of me. But fret not that this is temporary and I will be back on my own 2 feet to walk, run, jump, moving back where I last left, the Army Half Marathon. Next I definitely would look forward in 2009, my biathlon and triathlon per se.

Havent been here for a really long time. It was a sudden decision that OC pressed that I go for my surgery. Gotta thank him and Devil as well. Anyway, last week, was out drinking on Friday and Saturday. Happy Bday Auntie Chong!! haha drank til i went home to puke -_-''' Yeah I havent drank tt much for a long time alr... Sat night was for Weili and Jo's bday!! Drank at our usual hangout iguana. This time we ordered 21 shots of chocolate for the 7 of us!! LOL it was lz 1st encounter with shots so there were some throw ups and puking... it's ok coz it takes alil more experience to be used to the taste and pungent of tequila! ^^

Seems tt james and i are back to sangokushi taisen. Bought down few cards on sat from liverpool and loose cards from others. Well time to form decks and be ready for online battles!

2007-09-20T20:59:00.000+08:00

Just one Word, FUCK!

2007-09-11T11:29:00.000+08:00

If only I could turn back time...

Tuned to bu nen shuo de mi mi by Jay Chou

Fave of the week: I Still Believe by Vivian Hsu and Cao Ge

I finally decided to pen down here. What comes to my mind now is my op. I gotta postpone to it like latest early december. I am totally at a lost coz I dunno if I'll make it in time for CNY and also my med bills wont be covered anymore after Apr 08. Well just one word to describe this situation , F**K!. Yeah that's the word. Can't release me earlier and then I can be back earlier.. I dont know what's the issue of gg for op earlier or later... I still dont see the issue of manpower shortage if I am gone with trainees now ongoing trg. D*mn It! Hate my workstation!

Havent been doing much lately. Turn down my friends to meet up coz I aint very free during weekends, but I am more available during weekdays. No one understands why me pes C work more weekend duties than them PES A/B NDU, Armour, Signals, Artillery.. I myself dont even know how to answer them. I just tell them I try to work myself out and chiong the previous night before gg to work and regenerate myself then. Sorry to everyone for being so unavailable at times when everyone is free... My deepest apologies to everyone..

Had a chat with one my CPT, well he encouraged me to take night courses at this point of time. I am more or less done with training and night classes once a week wont kill the monthly roster. I am seriously considering the option to take up classes now. I should have done it long long ago. Like I had should done the op long long long ago. Why didnt I go for op, coz I wanna get my position catted asap to help the guys. And now, I am held back for the same reason... F**K IT I say... Well back to the topic, well my officer tinkled my mind when he told me, NS is a transition period so it'll be best to learn as much due the amount of free hours I got in my hands. Dunno how the outcome if I were to disclose this news to the rest...

Why's everything revolving work... Crap coz that's the frustration going thru this cranked up mind of mine...

2007-08-30T23:01:00.000+08:00

1111 N3058 TAN HAN WEI, BRENDAN 1:16:50 02:01:55.55 02:10:32.32

Yeah tt's my timing for AHM 07. That's my 1st try of a 21km run. I am just satisfied with my perfomance but fell 10min of my expection.

Nvm. I must hit below 2 hrs for the next SCM 07 in December!

2007-08-26T21:46:00.000+08:00

Breaking limits!

Tuned to shou fang jai by li sheng jie

Woked up at abt 0410 (local) today, had my cereals, docked on my dad's ride on the way to 1 place where many are gg at tt hour... None other than NDP Floating Platform at Marina! Yeah the Army Half Marathon Singapore Bay Run 07!! It was the very 1st time I went beyond my distance and ran the 21km! Ummm, what happened after the run?? Sastifaction and legs friggin SORE!!! Yeah limping arnd whenever I start walking. Had a interesting experience during the run. Passed Maxwell Market, Sheares Bridge, then to ECP off to Old Airport Road, Nicoll Highway and back! Had Stitch at the halfway mark after taking a sip of water (arrghh shldnt taken tt sip). I am just aint trained to consume fluids during runs. Paced with this petite lady from the halfway mark all the way to end. Thank You to whoever u might be. And as always the army's organisation SUCK big time. This time it's the baggage deposit, took 2hrs (tts the time I took to complete the 21km) to retrieve my baggage.. Uggghh... Well yeahh funn morning!

Recently my workstation is becoming a more unpleasant place to work in. Really stupid if u wonder why u are there, caught in btwn crossfires, changes tt are un-necessary. yeahh wth.

2007-08-21T22:12:00.000+08:00

Groovinnn

Tuned to Alarm by Namie Amuro

Managed to catch glimpses of the fireworks fest from Marina South while having dinner there with my colleagues. Yup a farewell function for those who have left and ORDed. Ha goodbye to Lumix, Keno and Vaccine!!! Finally went to try out para para machine again. Feels good to dance again~

Caught the Fireworks on Saturday with Cherieeee, ok lesson is that, get tickets for the seats next time... Tried some new Japanese Pasta restaurant at Marina Square. Alright the service standard was pretty good. Food was tasty.. But the portion is rather small so I found it rather overpriced... Haha will be back if I am rich again.

Been wet these few days... Rain with thunder all over during the weekend. Well weird huh?? Thought it was suppose to be the haze and hot period... Guess the global climate is changing and turning around again. Who knows, Singapore might even her temp dip below 20, then below 10 at last SNOW!!! Yukiiiiii!!! We can then enjoy 4 seasons, with 4 seasons of fashion and clothing... Our local fashion sense will improve as such.. yeah!! wishful thinking tt I got here. Haii... Fashion over here is just so boring coz we only live in rain or shine.. Oh well, tt's good, we wont need to spend so much on clothes as there's only one season..

Collected my race pack for AHM last Sunday... Went to try out some nepalese food around TP. Well it was pretty good and value for money... But I really wanna try is the Kway Chap at Blk 94 Toa Payoh Lor 4. Wow it looks good but its opening hours are pretty short, 6pm to 12.30am daily, closed on Mon.

Watched The Bourne Ultimatum yesterday evening with Cherieeee... goodness I slpt during some parts coz I was dead beat... The movie's good!! Thrilling, action pack and something to bring back. It reminded me of the movie, The Island. In Bourne, it tells a brainwashed man of his identity and purpose, manupilated by a mastermind to serve him. He snaps out somehow and fights his way to know the truth, gain his true identity and stop this atrocity. Yup, it might sound the extreme but it's possible. Whereas in the Island, the only diff is tt it deals with our technology so advanced, clones are created and used. They are needed only when their 'real' form needs a part of them. So the clones serve as a insurance for the master/owner. So some 'defects' break out of the faculty. A show with some moral lessons to bring back.

Some changes in the bus stops at orchard road and scotts. They have the display boards telling u the ETA of buses arriving at bus stops. Not very accurate (from what I have observed) but it's about there and serves as good gauge if u wanna go to the gents/ladies or get a quick from the convenience store...

2007-08-12T23:45:00.000+08:00

A Nation's Anniversary...

Tuned to Night of Fire by Dream

Well yeah yeah, Singapore's 42 years old alr.. Cool Cool... I dont sound too happie huh? Well Of Coz, coz I cant watch NDP with my family.. My 1st year I didnt watch NDP with my family members. Every year I made an attempt on my side to watch with them, if not just alil late and still watch it with them. But this year's been different coz I was manning for the planes that flew from our base.. Oh well, it's a small issue, would be really infuriating if I got the tix and I cant go for the NDP... Haha

Have I mentioned tt my grandma was on a temporary stay in my house?? Hmmm cant remb. But she left our place on Wed after my mom accompanied her for chk up tt day. Well kinda miss her even though I havent spoke much with her. The only thing we talk abt is hi , bye, have u eaten, are u hungry.. those lil conversations. But those conversations meant alot to me...

Still havent got serious in trg for AHM which is only 2 weeks away. Shall start running tmr morning. Crap and but also finally, it's my last week in 4 week continuous PM SHIFT!!! I am so happy, PM SHIFT distorts my trg plans and practice for running, gyming swimming.... But yeahh it's just one more WEEK!!! Yay yippie yays!!! ^^v

Wed was such a long day, reported to work in the morning for parade, stayed till the evening for there was vip visit. The vip was a cool guy, pretty friendly and approachable! Went home, got changed and set course for Vivo. Haha did some light shopping there at Daiso, got a card holder for my Sangokushi Cards, a plastic case for my ear accessories and other small lil items. Marks and Spencer for some Choc and Toffee! Met up with Cin after my lil tour there... Had dinner at Glutton's Bay. Was sooo crowded! Bought a Adida's Running vest too! That was on impulse though... anyway its nice! Had BlueBerry Macho Magarita at Cafe Iguana after dinner.

Met up with Cherie Leong on Friday Afternoon. Haha it's been some time we met up... Brought her to my fave beancurd store for lunch. Went to Bugis after that. Well passed by Summer House Doughnut Store. Well it's not bad just tt it had less variety as compared to Doughnut Factory. Got rice crackers from a Korean Wholesale Store on the way too! Went to walk around in OG, and realised the place really only suits my mom! Well I find it too old fashion for my mom too... Went touring around in Bugis Street, didnt get anything there and I dunno why... Haha that's weird coz the stuff there are cheap man as compared to those I bought from the dept stores and retail malls... Guess I still prefer the assurance from the goods shopping centres and retail malls offer. Haha and tata i got myself a new BAG!!! It was on offer!! A gola grip bag tt was less than 60 bucks, same size as my NUM. Haha I have yet to open it up though.. lol had dinner at Glutton's Bay coz she had a huge craving for char kway teow, walk alil more till our lower limbs almost broke before we left for home. Hah...

Participated in some mini charity run at Sentosa org by NJ. Well yeah a quick 5 plus km run. Haha so tired coz I barely slept the night before. Slept in every train or bus journey on the way home. Went down to town to meet a Debs. Havent seen her for about a year already. Haha had a long chat over lunch at Anatolia (turkish eatery at Far East Plaza and where we first met outside school last time). Well we really havent met in ages that's why. We were searching for a bear phone chain, searched high and low but to no avail. It was this bear kept in a capsule and its a hp strap. It was for one of Deb's tuition kid. Walked around town before we decided to watch movie. Couldnt get seats for The Bourne Ultimatum so we settled for Rush Hour 3. And we had dinner in the cinema of sushi and a tub of Ben's & Jerry's Ice Cream!! Haha and how did we bring it all in?? thanks to the big bag of mine to keep everything! Yea!

2007-08-07T00:19:00.000+08:00

Where can I find... Motivation?

Tuned to ni na me ai ta

I liked to thank many. Endless counts of gratitude to everyone out there. Thanks and many thanks. To many, I apologise, I say sorry... Sorry aint enough, it aint always the best solution but an excuse for not being able to do what I could have done back then. Many sorrys and my deepest apologies... =)

I realised whatever happens, happened for a simple reason.. That is for me to learn, to realise something which I'd overlooked and took granted for. Yeah To Learn from my mistakes and be mindful of what could happen again in future. There's always first times. Always make sure a second doesnt happen. yeahh...

Gonna start training proper for AHM this end august. I doubt I can finish it w/o walking. This is my 1st attempt for a 21km run. Well see how my training goes to prepare me. Without work schedule like getting pretty shitty these days, I doubt I got much time and energy to train up too. Feeling pretty crap at work lately... Probably its time that I try to share my workload around... Everytime when there's a family gathering, it always falls on a weekend duty, what the fuck, like it's planned to nicely and smoothly.. 2 weekends of the month and it has to land on those friggin day...

How I miss those school days, where I could do what I want. Run whenever I pleased in school... Shop whenever I could, and meet up with my friends any day or evening after classes or CCA.. Now's life's leaves me totally alone sometimes, I am around when others arent, others around when I am not... I miss my family...

I m starting to dread gg to work...

2007-07-26T21:44:00.000+08:00

I've lost it, totally...

Hate this feeling of moodiness... I've lost interest in everything else around me. There's nothing in my mind, my mind's a blank... Emptiness feels my surroundings... I feel locked up in this small dark space which my mind created... There's nothing else besides myself chained to something, something which I cant even describe.... It's this very feeling which I always encounter from time to time... Not always or often but still it happens in a cyclical frequency. I want break this chain and leave this dreaded space but I can't. I dont know to, dont know the way to do it... I want to smile... give an honest decent smile to myself... Pls, smile again... But I cant do it... I am gloomy, very very gloomy... Despair fills my vocabulary, hope is outta my library, my soul and spirit is trapped in a bottle, being fiddled by the imp... I am bounded by my own mind... I want to break free...

2007-07-23T02:14:00.000+08:00

One Word, Fuck.

Tuned to yi shi de mei hao by Angela Chang

Fave of e week: li xiang qing ren by raine yang

Wont hold back on the language for this entry. I bid farewell to my w850i at bedok reservoir this morning after the Mizuno Wave Run. God knows how I lost the phone or how it grew legs and crawled outta my bag. Strangely I had the feeling that it was gone when it was gone. I dunno but I really loved that phone of mine, more than any phones I had coz it was all mulit purpose and the best! Felt real miserable and angry with myself for loosing another phone since 2 plus years... Fucking shit...

Came to realise that my nearest NPP was pretty far away. All the way in teck whye ave. None within a 5min walk from my block. Made a futile attempt(i must admit) to report phone which is less 1% chance of it coming back to me. Tried every possible means to ensure my phone is alright.. Later in the day will be calling up Sony Ericsson...

The wave run didnt start off well. I wasnt early and the ground was muddy and wet. The roads were narrow or maybe there were just too many ppl. The waiting time was enough to complete 2 more rounds of 10k. It was just plainly disorganised mismanaged and every shit fuck word to describe it in comparison to the previous Mt Faber Run. Fuck up, to sum up...

2007-07-20T23:13:00.000+08:00

Rounding things up

Tuned to Li Xiang Qing Ren by Rainie Young

Fave of the week: 4 in the Morning by Gwen Stefani

To round my shopping spree, i got a new bag, finally!! Haha since everlast didnt have a new piece for the colour I wanted, I settled for a NUM one. It cost about 30 bucks more than the Everlast one though. I pretty like this new long and large bag of mine. Well, I still prefer carrying it on my shoulder rather than slinging it round me. I dont look good with slings.

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Caught a couple with movies this week. Watched Die Hard 4.0 with tyt and jj. Omg... the show's portray of a man having infinite no. of lifes in a video game. Smashing a chopper with a car, destroying a F35 (the latest update of the F22) and many impossibly coincidental victories. Too unrealistic for me. The show'd been renamed Undying 4.0 or the cannot die 4.0.

Happy Potter... correction Harry Potter: Order of the Phoenix. Caught it with Cin yest. Alright apparently I was ignorant of the presence of Harry Potter: Goblet of Fire before this episode. So I was pretty lost half the time. The whole time "who's cedric?", was in my mind during the movie. Alright, generally a fine build up and nothing too interesting. Just showing Harry suffering from drawbacks with "thou shall not be named" invading his mine. The show thought a pretty good lesson that schools shld have the way and mind of their own. Not be overpowered and 100% influence by the Ministry some practices in sch might be much better and beneficial to the students. The ministry only set guidelines and a basis but not the perfect formula. After the ministry is also made of people, similarly in school the system and style is created by people too. ^^

Will miss dearly my 2 seniors, Lumix and Keno. Haha they are the 2 pillars or the towers that supported me during my stay also my unofficial mentors too. Goodbye to them and Godspeed guys!

Some really disturbing news lately. China with their very "unique food practices", air accidents, weird and worrying weather conditions and buildups. Unsual rains during dry season. Wow I must say, the news keep me gg! (A totally redundant statement I just made...)

Alright gonna sign up for the Army Half Marathon tmr at HDB HUB TP coz they are giving away a bonus goodie bag... Lol I decided it will be 21km for me. Gonna try go beyond the distance that I have tried thus far. All the best!

2007-07-14T11:27:00.000+08:00

Uncontrollable...

Tuned to Taiyou no Uta by Kaoru Amane (Sawajiri Erika) Theme for J Drama, Taiyou no Uta

Fave of the Week: Shiroi no Koibito by Kuwata Keisuke

Been out shopping lately every other day... Yeah spending on what I want during GSS... Let's see what I have got over this 2 weeks.

1) A new pair of Earrings (Nana)
2) Mizuno Running Shoes
3) Mizuno Dry Fit Tee
4) Lockable Laces
5) Zara Top
6) Pull and Bear Berms
7) 120 GB External HDD
8) Some CDs

Gonna get a new bag soon!!! cant decide which one to get.... Hmmm shld i be alil more thrifty more my bag and get the Converse or Nike Grip bags?? Or shld I just ignore everything and get the one from NUM or EVERLAST... *ponders* Anw I still got abt a week to decide so no worries. Next week I'll arrive at my decision. Also gonna get a wallet from FOSSIL when there's a sale... The wallets are realllll cool!! Well that's all for now, prob get a collared tee from Zara too after their 2nd mark down sale.

Had a mini shift gathering last fri at Sakae Sushi. They had the buffet thingy so it was pretty worth it. But as for quality I'd def turn to Sushi Tei @ Paragon for my Japanese Meals or my usual ramen hangouts at Clarke Quay if I really wanna enjoy my Jap Meal. Thanks guys for turning up with full strength regardless of leave, off or manning!! ^^

There was a shooting gathering back at CJ with seniors and juniors for the SJF Carnival. Well haha it's been long time since I touched the air pistol and guess what... I totally lost currency on how to handle it. Cant remb how to dry fire, live fire, to sight the gun. I only remb how to fire and breathing techniques, control of the sight... haha so i was one noob in basics and breach to safety in the range. Anw, thought I shot pretty badly coz there were like 3s, 5s,6s also quite a number of Bull's Eye and 9-ers. So I pull off 510 total score coming in Second. hah...

Went back to SJI for AP this year though I didnt intend to until Tai Tai asked me in the mrg. Ok this year's parade had a few incidents like the Flag Bearer falling out and also not all the UGOs got Gold Awards. But haha who cares abt the awards, the standards are not clearly reflected by the awards anw.. Yeah... Haha

Was away in JB with Cin on Monday. Haha yeah shopping and eatting and stuff. Spent quite abit on Cab Fare though as we went to Jusco which was located pretty far from the Checkpoint. Was too obsessed with Shopping till we rushed down to Marina and Suntec after that for more shopping. Cant believe ourselves for actually doing that but it was worth the journey -_-

Ran the 100 Plus Saucony PAssion run at ECP last Sunday. It was a great Sunday morning with the right weather and right sunlight. Haha, clocked 52 min for the 10km.

Come to think of it I have been doing last min shopping lately. Yesterday I went down to town after work for just 45min of shopping. At least I managed to get something in the end so I didnt regret the trip and discover a new bag to consider too.. Met Cin for dinner at Bt Timah Al Ameen. Was there abt 2 weeks back with Retro, Durex and Vaccine after work when we ended 2300h. Lol

On the hunt for the best foods and drinks in Singapore. For now my conclusion is:

Beancurd and Pastry: Rochor Beancurd at Short Road
Ramen: The restaurant at basement of Liang Court next to Mediya
Jap Restaurant: Kuruma Jap Cuisine (god knows where it shifted after Orchard Promenade got torn down.
Chinese Sweet Desserts Paste: Chinatown Store near Lucky Chinatown
Wu Xiang: Macpherson Kopitiam Food Centre
Rojak: Macpherson Kopitiam Food Centre
Laksa: Alexandria Food Centre Claypot Laksa
Ba Chor Mee: Food Centre next to Le Meridien Hotel
Teh Bing: Ya Kun
Carrot Cake: RedHill Food Centre
Lime Juice: An old Food Centre at Telok Blangah Heights
Mee Goreng and Indian Rojak: Ayeh Rajah Food Centre down West Coast, Al Ameen at Bt Timah
Ba Kut Teh and Soy Sauce Pig Trotter: Jurong East Food Centre next to Parc Oasis Condo at Chinese Gardens MRT
XO Fish Noodle: Jurong West Food Centre near JJC
Durians and Fruits: Jurong West Food Centre near JJC
Seafood Restaurant: IMM Long Beach Restaurant
Budget Seafood Restaurant: Teck Whye, Coffee Shop near to NTUC and next to 2 temples
Satay: Bt Timah Food Centre
Western Food: Botak Jones Fish Chips and Hog's Breath Cafe, Jacks Place
Italian Cuisine: Spageddies (so far tts the only Italiano Restaurant I visit)
Chicken Rice: Jurong East Food Centre next to Parc Oasis Condo at Chinese Gardens MRT (only 2 bucks per plate, cheap and good)
Curry Fish Head: Karu's banana leaf restaurant, taman jurong food centre
Dim Sum: Tung Lok Restaurant and Crystal Jade
HK cuisine: Crystal Jade Restaurant
Char Kway Teow: Hong Lim Food Centre
Fried Hokkien Mee: Chinatown food centre
Claypot Rice: Chinatown Food centre
Nasi Lemak: Changi Village Food Centre
Ipoh Hor Fun: Changi Village Food Centre
Apple Crumble: Swenson's
Ice Cream: Ben and Jerry's Vermonster

That's all I can think for now, will be coming with pics soon!!

2007-07-02T00:01:00.000+08:00

Nana... (editted)

Tuned to Sweet Impact by BoA

Fave of the Week: Wang Zi by Zhang Dong Liang

What a week it was ... Especially Mon to Wed... Everyday was till about 11pm or 12am then I got dismissed from work. Didnt see my dad for 3 whole days too... Got some quarrel and cold war with mom too along the way coz there was 1 day where I didnt managed inform her tt I wasnt able to have dinner though I thought i was able to. Oh well it's usual when such things happen. If there was a year without cold war, I will be able to see Singapore snowing. Went out for supper after work for a few days. Haha feels weird when a bunch of ppl wearing no. 3 goes out to eat in the middle of the night.

Just completed the MILK RUN this afternoon. Haha was late for flag off so i had to join the start of the 5.3km. Luckily I could still take the 8.4km route along the way. Felt good sprinting pass many ppl from the start... Almost trip and fell some ppl along the way coz it was crowded, I wanted to overtake at all cost, couldnt stop my acceleration, did some dangerous cuts in btwn the runners. Haha alot of shit and cool moves. This new pair of shoes really provided me with lots of cushion and support along the way. Saw a few familiar cj peeps and many SJI kids there doing sai kang as volunteers. Haha..

Friday was a long day and finally the day that came. It was a CAF visit though where we had put in much effort to prepare for his visit. Well seriously speaking the preparation period is clearly reflected in the show Just Follow Law. Jack Neo's production is one of close similiarities to the situations which really happen in Singapore.. The indispensible red tape is shown clearly here as well. But anw, to treat ourselves, the grp left with me vaccine andrew and derrick went to Changi V for dinner. Saw Jenn there too.

Went down to Town to shop on sat after collecting my running kit for the PAssion run this sunday. Got a pair of new shoelaces which can be tightened with a pull and a click. Very useful for me. A new pair of earrings and a new CD. Also got a pink striped shirt from Zara today. haha Pink is DA colour!!

Caught a few movies. One was Transformers! Autobots Roll Out!!! A pretty cool show. But with some critics after coming to consensus with Jenga, the camera angles were pretty bad at some parts. The prob was u just see pieces of metal smashing each other. Maybe the camera could zoom out further, enable us to see who's fighting who, if not the audience have to wait to see the face of bots to identify them...

Met up with Cin just now (020707) for lunch. Haha back to my fave Sushi Tei at Paragon. Bitched and gossiped over our lunch. Didnt eat much but was very full.. haha watched Nancy Drew after that. Well I wasnt too keen to watch it actually. But after watching it, it was a pretty good show. Alil too simplistic for my level. Well this show is for kids anyway so I wont complain further. Haha.

2007-06-19T11:13:00.000+08:00

To think it's not, yet it turned out to be so...

Tuned to Ou Ruo La by Angela Chang

Fave of the Week: Wang Zi by Zhang Dong Liang

Yesterday, something happened... Something that I wont wanna be in his shoes... Disheartening to see someone next to u ostracized and yet u are unable to do anything... I dont know react and act during these situations though.. Seriously, I am not someone who would go up to u and give u one big fat hug when u need it or when u shld have it. I tend to be on the safe side... I dont like to take risks except some special occasions. I cant keep things to myself, I'd like to have someone hear me out and contain and combust all that I wanna say... I dont know what and where am I heading to, All I know I am gearing for the month of July and that's the thing I am looking forward to...

Caught Fantastic Four on Sunday with James and Lz. Blockbusters are always let downs with either a short story or just poor build up. Hope Transformers doesnt disappoint me. Popped by Zara at MS where Cin works. Accompanied her during her dinner break. Saw a couple of familiar faces, some whom I dont wish to see, some whom I can create goose talks about.

Weekends are becoming more meaningless. I have nothing to look forward to except lunch dinner and my training. Using the comp to play GE, catching all pokemon and pinning down the Elite Four, watching unwatched anime series. That's all... Well What More would I want to do?? I aint too sure myself either... Just wanna...

Found a news article on the best doughnuts in Singapore. Cool will hunt them one by one and give my own personal reviews... Maybe it's time to bring my digicam out with me wherever I go. Doubt my 2.0 mgp w850i can take reall solid pics... *shrugs*

2007-06-03T23:05:00.000+08:00

Halfway Through. Project Tidal Nana.

Tuned to Glamourous Sky by Nana starring Mika Nakashima

Fave of the Week: Liang Shan Bo Yu Zhu Li Ye by Cao Ge

Had been a lazy week for me... ever since after the Brooks Run last sunday, I havent ran a single bit until this evening for about 3km. Well, this recuperation phase is done with, its back to serious pump up for my July Sweep of Runs. Henceforth this July sweep of runs will be hereby pronounced as Project Tidal Nana. All Happening in the month July, which is 7 in numerics, translated to Jap is Nana. Moreover Nana's my other name. ..A wave of runs starting with the Milk Run 1 July, PAssion Run on 8 July, Mizuno Wave Run on 22 July. Not too much of a distance. Add all of them up its slightly more than a Half Marathon Event. ^^ Training Phase... A brief outline of what is gonna come this few weeks...

Week 1 will commence tmr proper. There'll be a total of 4 weeks in all. That will be inclusive of the Milk Run which falls on the last week of the training phase. I will be going for distance during my trg sessions, NOT SPEED coz my knee cant accelerate and it cant afford to be broken if I overuse its power.

Week 1 => Warm Up/Shape Up Session

2 Initial Session of Jogs 5km each with no time limit
2 5km run with time limit of below 30min
1 5km Consolidation Run

2 Sessions of Gym Weights in between the Runs

Week 2 => Pacing Up

2 5km Endurance Training with inclined terrain
2 8km Stamina assimilation under 40min
1 1.5km Swim

2 Gym Session of Strength Training for Upper Body

Week 3 => Time Phase

3 5km trial under 25min
1 10km trial under 55min
1 1.5km Swim

*Gym Sessions if applicable

Week 4 => Wrapping Up

2 5km Run
1 Milk Run 8.4km
1 1.5km Swim

3 Gym Sessions for Strength

Diet Considerations:

Effective and Enough consumption of Carbohydrates esp. Rice which I tend to avoid every meal. That has to change to consume alil more carbo this time. Sufficient Sleep of 7 hrs every night regardless of duties and programmes. Alcohol Abstainence. 5 Light Meals per day, have to watch out for dinner as I tend to eat the most then. That's all I can consider for Dieting coz I dont pay much attention for what I take.

What I actually worry most is the sleeping routine and habit which changes like weather... unpredictable it is due to duty sessions and the alternating sleeping habit. Napping in the afternoon is still crucial coz it refreshes me but I musnt sleep more than 1 hr if not I'd be groggy for the rest of the day....

Met up with the shooting peeps ytd for dinner. Thanks guys for the bday dinner and present. Well i wasnt keen on alcohol after that but I broke my own code and drank down some alcohol in the end... Seems I lost the interest in drinking due to the cost as well as it hinders my training process towards Project Tidal Nana. Shaun, James and I went off to complete Hero Siege!! Haha Finally we completed it!! Lol. Had to cab home coz there wasnt any NR left to take.

Vesak Day, a holiday on thursday. Well the usual, went to the temples to offer and receive blessings. Well the food was good haha. Anyway away from food, got a new DS game, Pokemon Diamond! Haha nostalgic to play Pokemon again after intermitent breaks in between each version. Been obsessed playing with it since. Met up with Cindy after work for supper. Haha exchange ramblings amongst each other and got to learn that working in retail is harder than what I have done before.

Went with my colleagues after work on Tuesday to Jurong East Swimming Complex. Played the big slide and slacked in the jaccuzi. Haha there were many many people.. Forgot that it was the school holidays... So the area was pretty cramped up when there was a wave!! Didnt manage to get a tan though coz it was raining on an on/off basis.

2007-05-27T22:46:00.000+08:00

Dehydrated

Tuned to Aurora by Angela Chang

Fave of the Week: Superwoman by Cao Ge

Just completed my Brooks Life Run this morning at the city area.. Well the running route of approx 10km covered the Clarke Quay and Fullerton Area in particular whereby the start point was at the Merlion. There seemed to be an organisational screw up frequently. My run was delayed for quite abit too... And things progressed slow and didnt take place as reflected on the programme sheet. Anyway, let alone the management and conduct of the event for the organisers to debrief . It was pretty hot and the sun was scorching upon us. I got pretty worn out after I made the 1st round and proceeding to the second round. I wasnt used to running in the area where the road was different texture thru out, stairs which slowed me down as well running in enclosed areas... I am just not too comfy with that, maybe I am too used to running in open spaces and at night, that my body could not adapt properly to the weather there.... Just when I was about to reach the finishing I had a real bad stitch on my right which I could not bear with tt I had to walk for a couple of steps... Nevertheless I finished it!! ^^

Dozed off yesterday while typing this entry, let me continue before I go to bed... Did my 1st standby duty for weekend. Well the 12 plus hours went by pretty fast actually. Didnt manage read much of my book, ended up spending time on the DS Lite more often. Lol... But the phone Lines held me back for an hour due to some migration of lines in the afternoon thus affecting our common practice of usage of phn lines during our duties... Still unable to master the art of interception, diversion, take over and dialling forbidden paid numbers using the new phn line... Will try to find a way to do so...

My right leg is starting to give way... Its loosing its grip sometimes, and I am beginning to loose my footing thereafter... Is this a sign tt i shld stop running and aggravating situation?? or is this a transition phase in strengthen the overall wellness of the good ol' injury which I had sustain 2 years back... The Operation is soon yet still far in about 2 months... I have yet come to a decisive conclusion to give a go or no go... Lets see how July comes and go when I pronounce the start of the Running Wave with Milk Run and Passion Run, possibly adding the Mizuno wave run rumoured to be in July too..

2007-05-21T23:57:00.000+08:00

20!

Tuned to Get High by F.I.R

Fave of the Week: Zhong Guo Hua by S.H.E

Its the bday again!! this time it hit the 20... No longer a 1 something anymore... Haha ok it was alil more happening this time round coz it lasted a few days. As for today, met up with Cherie for lunch in town. Visited the good ol' Sushi Tei at paragon! Haha had her tried the salmon belly soup which seh initially refuted even a bite from it, but later became obsessed with it. And got a chance to have a the Apple Crumbie at Swenson's after such a long time... The last few times when I wanted have a try, it was always not avail. Well luckily this time it was around!! Had ice cream with a candle... Come to think of it I havent blown out a bday candle for 2 years.. lol

The Phantom of the Opera was indescribeable I must say... It was a really good production with everything so professionally done and not a bit I felt like dozing off or leaving the play for the gents. So unlike the previous performances I attended where I couldnt wait to leave. The singing was great, props were illustrative and timely changed, cast was professional, sequencing was excellent. Well as this is my 1st exposure to a literature production, I say wouldnt mind more of such. I didnt watch the movie before the play, got the basis I needed from the online encyclopedia, wikipedia! After the play, cin and I went for our usual beancurd dessert at Rochor Beancurd.

Started to k box again. This time was with my NS buddies. Haha, some pro singers and frequent we have over here. Haha definitely look forward to more K Box sessions after work or K Lunch during weekends!

Celebrated Andrew's 21st Bday on Saturday. Haha both our bdays fall on the same day actually, 21st May!! Come to think of it, how shld I actually celebrate my 21st bday aniway?? Hmmm still got another 365 days to think about it. Went down to play Dota after tt with the usual peeps... Played till I became totally worn out due to staying up late the past few nights.

Friday Night... haha well there were initial plans to play mahjong thru the night. But it got called off due to some unforeseen circumstances... Oh well, tough luck another time then... So went out with my NS buddies to Clarke Quay... Wanted to go to palm room but turned out to be crowded... Wanted to go butter factory but turned out our age couldnt meet their limit... So we went to Geylang instead!!! haha went to eat beancurd and yuo tiao.... In comparison to Rochor's Beancurd, I still my rochor beancurd though... The beancurd is much smoother warmer, the you tiao is more fluffy?? yeahhh in all better!! Derrick was the tour guide around geylang. So we walked the alleys of prostitution... They were handful good looking ones, some okay ones and many CMI ones too... Well the transvertites look surprisingly sexier than those of the norm. Haha I aint suggesting anything but that's how I feel in all. Went thru the darkest alley known as the tunnel, which turned out the scariest amongst all coz it's god forsaken dark, so are the people there... The car journey back home was one hella good time man!! thanks Alan, made me feel tt I was in the seat of the car starred in Initial D!! LOL

2007-05-16T22:45:00.000+08:00

A step into reality...

Tuned to Zhong Guo Hua by S.H.E

Fave of the Week: Taiyou no uta by Kaoru Amane (Sawajiri Erika)

A request sent for this new post to be up... let's see, what significant and insignificant happened this week... there was a ad hoc dinner for us spec up at mt faber marina deck restaurant. It was a steamboat restaurant whereby once again I overate and became too sleepy after the meal.. Lol.... What the true intent of this gathering was a retreat for all of us to take a step back to think abt and reflect abt what happened... Frankly speaking I dont find much of a problem, or shld I say I already gave up on what so many problems tt happened before... Basically the same things happening within my workplace is much in line when I was back in my SJI NPCC unit.. Problems with slow administration due to heavy red tape and procedures, the budget measures, things not working out due to umpteen changes from the higher ups at HQ and everything else... We were in a period of change where I was part of the Mgt Comm running my unit, had a terribly hard time adapting. And then became a CI, could do abit more to help but not perform magic to salvage the recipes of disaster laid down... Thus coming back to 2007, its time to face the parallel reality... We are trying our best to cope but we need a recipe to enable us to just cope but control the situation, not letting the situation cook us up... One very eminent problem is the capacity of the individual and availability, its just too obvious one cant play more than 2 instruments in the orchestra...

There are suddenly so many things I wish to get... First and foremost I would like a new pair running shoes preferably a shoes for regular runner like aasics. But I am unsure if their shoes are usable for flatfoots like me... New Balance has been fine but I dont see a attractive one which i like.. Mizuno looks goods with its new Wave Rider series... Will see which to get... Next, a tattoo for my left back!! As for the design, it seems like a flower was hit on the vital point, thus I have found a new intent... Thereafter search for a new fashion and outlook for myself. These days, my favourites are sandals/slippers, running shorts and polo tee. A slack image... Maybe I shld head back to have a more presentable dress sense again...

After these 3 months or so, I have reach a new peak as I am done with my training phase. Now the climax unfolds and I would have more time and capacity to learn those things which arent taught earlier, which is non other than experience. It will be an accumulation of exp this time and also a time to learn new things... Haha also I have the capacity for my story and non fict books which I bought the past few months!!

2007-05-11T00:55:00.000+08:00

Threshold

Tuned to Kiseki by BoA

Fave of the week : Heart and Soul by Gankou Mai (Ikkitousen Dragon Destiny OP1)

It's been a few weeks, and finally I remembered to jote down my thoughts in this lil space of mine on the web. What I might discuss will not follow a chronological order as I'll type whatever comes to my mind.

It amaze me that my threshold is still pretty low... I still get agitated by the slightest thing possible esp. on the roads. Okay, although I cant drive on the road, I get totally exaberated when the car in front drives as though he has the whole day to travel from Jurong to Boon Lay; parents not leading their kids when crossing roads; and pedestrain walking as though the roads are named after their family... As compared to my dad who gets into a thrashing with his superior at work and followed by a series of unfortunate events for day, he doesnt act as f up as I do... Maybe its just the experience and time he has lived this world to realise and strengthen his threshold of tolerance... Gotta learn tt from him..

Signed up for another 10km this end may at Marina Bay. No uphills or downhilss this time round, just a normal run. Gonna take it lightly for this one since I only intend to beat myself and set a new record for my personal training. Also Signed up for the Milk Run this coming July too. Still in the midst of considering for other upcoming races like the Mizuno Wave Run, New Balance Real Run as well as the saucony 100 plus run...

Bought tickets for the last show of the season for the Phantom of the Opera by Broadway. Hope the last show will be good , the best one!! Haha, well basically we didnt book early thats why we only could settle for the last show. This is gonna be my very 1st time watching a musical play live in a theatre... Makes me feel as though as I am living into 19th century in the West where the nobles attended plays in the arts hall or theartres, english literature appreciation was very common then.

Caught Spiderman 3 last weekend... Okay the main lead seems to have put on weight!! His double chin is visible, also his tummy can be seen when he's in the spiderman costume! Ummm yeah what the hell is going on I wonder... All I can say is that its another American Propagating show to portray the triumph of good over evil and teaching good moral values to the public (coz tts what most ppl lack) Wonder why Superheroes of Marvel and DC are mostly dressed in red and blue?? Take spiderman, captain america and superman! Its suggestive that its for America to be seen in good light and bad coz the shows always seem to America in the light tt it's plagued by crimes and injustice... But all shows come with a lesson to learn is worth watching...

Sometimes I wonder... If I had been less careless.. If I had been stronger... If I had more willpower.... If I havent been injured.... If I havent this and that.... Maybe I could have done more... more than what I am doing now... Maybe not either.... It's just another contradiction in life, what i wish for may come true, may not come true... may be in best interest for u or work against you too.... *just some random thoughts gg thru my mind at this pt of time*

2007-04-22T21:57:00.000+08:00

Broke Down

Tuned to Milky Way by BoA

Fave of the week: Wish by Olivia inspi Reira (Nana Anime Series)

Was at Momo last Saturday night for Shaun's Bday... Didnt feel like entering initially coz I just wasnt keen on clubbing there due to some foreseen reasons.. But anyway anyway overdrank and KO'd like a dead log as usual... Reported to work on the Sunday alil tipsy, lol but still managed pull thru...

It wasnt a good and smooth week to begin with... I didnt have a good start and neither did I have good end to the work week... I'll remb myself always breaking down at some point of time of the year... usually in the frequency of about say... 5mths?? Every mid and end of year something would happen, not good neither very bad, just something... God knows what will happen next... uncertainty makes life much more interesting, just like a Gachapon machine, u just dont know what you will get next.

Broke down mid week after a trg slot, screwed it up pretty badly... Cant remember things, nothing just goes in and stays... it always leave after moment... Like I always I dont possess the luxury of a photographic memory.. Gotta revisit now and then to keep myself current... Haha this problem of mine pose a bigger problem when it comes to relationships, coz I tend forget 50% of what was told by companion... However, it wont be problem to me for the next year or so since I got no big plans to go into one. Hmmm will try to revise my notes as and when I can...

Went down to town on my off day on Thurs... I really miss those days whereby I'll go down afterschool and window shop alone. Reminiscing those days where I would have lunch at a restaurant alone, bought clothes and stayed ages at kino looking for fashion mags... All in my school uniform, white or blue... Now I dont have the time to afford to do all that, and sadly I dont get to enjoy the days where I can walk down Orchard Road with little traffic coz I am bogged down by work on weekdays...

My real purpose in town to servicing my headphones and earpiece for my W850I... it went cranky after i fell down tt day and the connection went alil loose. The girl at the service counter brighten this miserable week of mine... She didnt do anything special, but she had a real radiant smile and that expression brought me back to reality from the depths under... Well in return, I just sat there silent, watching the animated Mr Bean playing on the huge LCD screen behind her... took a peek at her and smiled back whenever possible... (I got no idea why I am going on and blabber on this redundant topic)

Got a call to have beancurd on friday night! Haha yeah luckily we managed to get some beancurd and you tiao despite being midnight already... Went down to Sentosa at about 1am (I must be crazy to go to Sentosa at this hour), and walk down the beaches to my favourite tower spot. Haha Cin was still afraid of roaches roaming around so we moved away from place to place when roaches were spotted... Caught up on each other's updates and from where we had left off last month...

And I just had my Mizuno Mt Faber Run this morning. Surprisingly I saw Ray, my BMTC bunk mate there too. Guess there inclined training on the threadmill paid off coz I didnt slow down to walk at any point... Perservere!! And I achieved my target of coming in less than a hour, about 54min. Haha yeah!! Came home shagged and took a long afternoon nap when weather kicked and became really cool and dark.. (perfect for a nap)

2007-04-12T22:43:00.000+08:00

Again??

Tuned to Take me to the Top by D.Essex (Initial D)

Fave of the Week: Bu De Bu Ai by Xuan Zi and Wilber Pan

Yet again, I fell down and injure myself during one of my routined runs. Tripped over a root of a tree or something tt stook out from the ground while I was about to cross the road. Land on my knees and forearms. Resulted in some bruises and minor cuts in those areas. So a temporary hold for my runs and swims which really irritates me!! As I landed just by the road, it was real thankful that there were no buses travelling at that point of time if not myhead would have been smashed...

Anyway looking from another perspective, it means rest for me for the time being and time to do weights and body pumps to kill time...

Flunk the basic theory yet again. I rock dont I?? Wtf I mean, took it twice and failed both times. Shall try again in June...

Last weekend was a long one since there was good friday.. Took the time to pay respects to my anchestors during the Qing Ming Festival. Went to the cemetries by Lim Chu Kang. It was packed with many on the sunday morning. Wow... This is the only time when u see the cemetries filled with... living people?? Wahahaha...

It has been a very long time since we played LAN overnight... Yeahh good friday evening played Lan from about 7 to 11pm... Took a supper break and started playing from 2-5am... Madness I must say...

2007-04-01T23:44:00.000+08:00

April Fools!! Have u been fooled?

Tuned to Secret by Hamasaki Ayumi

Fave of the week: My Way by Tamaki Nami

Signed for another event on the 22 April. Its the Mizuno Mount Faber Run this time. 10km in total both uphill and downhill. Sounds Interesting and tiring during the uphill sections. Gotta begin endurance training as of now. What comes good is that I got 30% off on Mizuno items. Made my decision on what to get, yet to make the purchase. Most prob is one of their running tops and dry fit tee or polo.

Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles was Cawa banca awesome!! Woohoo, michael angelo never fails to make me laugh for his nonsense. My fave char Raphael resembles my character esp with the hot temperedness and his attitude. Can say tt i am similar to him.

Got a chance to sit on the DHL Hot Air Balloon at Bugis. Okay cool u go up 40 storeys high and observe the sea and buildings surrounding it. And u get to see which roof tops have not been cleaned for quite a while. Inspect that Singapore Roads are really narrow in the city hall, and that we can well afford many cars. Haha, yeah went out with Cindy on Friday for the usual catch up session and dinner. Added one eatery to my dictionary of Singapore's Best Foods which is the Rochor Beancurd at Short Street. The Dao Huay ROCKS big time!!!

Celeberated Lz bday last weekend with the shooting peeps. James and I travelled miles in search of her bday present for about 3 hours and easily over 6km on foot. Was damn tired before we even hit dinner time at Sakura Buffet. Went down to Cafe Iguana for the usual Macho Mageritas before I hit KO and slept on the spot after sharing one with Dan. Lol...

Also attended Lagoon's wedding ceremony at Raffles Town Club. I love weddings, real sweet and touching moments and celeberationg of a couple tying knots. Also a chance for social interaction amongst one another. The food was pretty good too! ^^

2007-03-22T22:53:00.000+08:00

What's Next then?

Tuned to Winter Love by BoA

Fave of the week: ni hen ai ta by FIR

Biathlon 07!!! yeah I finished it eventually after 1h 41min. That's pretty slow as a matter of fact. Tseng finished in 1hr 26min, good job!! Hmm a summary of what happened during the race. Initially I had a bad start coz the swimming got clogged up at the start line. This was due to many breast stroke users as well as weak swimmers. So I couldnt move off far and had to maintain my breath at the start for abt 5min before setting course. Well almost lost my breath at the initial stage coz it was my first time swimming in the open sea. The run was great, good weather, multiple water points which were pretty misleading and an obstacle to stop for a drink... A distraction I must say.... Too many water points. No deaths this time round thank goodness and wow! nice day! Watched 300 in e evening!! A good show with good graphics, blood, fight, sex and everything... In short, what a man wants in a show, 300 has it!!

This week's been pretty taxing due work up training for exercise. I am exposed a local trainee in position with real heavy traffic, many things which are new to me and also a rare experience with so such a massive scale of activity happening simultaneously. Wonderful learning experience for myself...

Still havent got anything for this saturday... Will settle by tmr then...

2007-03-15T22:42:00.000+08:00

Death Awaits...

Tuned to Winter Love by BoA

Fave of the week: ni hen ai ta by F.I.R

Phew... a long while... I am back! Hmmm com's down, a replacement is on his way here. Probably arriving on Sat. Got the new one from the IT SHOW at Suntec last weekends. Pretty crowded with shoppers.... Many models for the camera brands like canon, nikon etc. Reminded me of the motor show a few years back where race queens were advertising the cars. Haha weee weee!

Started my local position training in tower. Not as easy airpic but doing fine for the time being... Exercise coming up so my trg tempo will upped accordingly. Pretty exciting and fun in position as the scenerios are really random with all kinda factors coming in, weather, aircraft, vehicular movement, damage of equipment, it's like u are a central reporting center to various agencies!! Cant wait for more to come and for what might come.

This sat might end up doomsday if smth were to happen. I lay my life and soul on this saturday morning for the biathlon... The first time in my life signing up for such events. All the best!! I hope to come back safe sound and satisfied. The adrenaline in me is building and bulking up... Cant wait to put to test all the training I have been thru...

Grace's bday dinner last fri. Haha part 2 was MAHJONG!! Yup played till the next morning... Slept on the bus home in morning, on the train and when I reached home I slept thru out till the afternoon... Had dinner on sat at sushi tei with sake and sushi. So not used to having sake and sushi at the same time... so how do the japs managed to eat and drink at the same time.... Hmmm anw sake is great!!

She's not the one either... I wont bother her anymore... Goodbye mate! Pointless... Shall pour my attention to somewhere more fruitful...

2007-02-21T23:41:00.000+08:00

Irrashai Shinnen dayo!!

Tuned to Winter Love by BoA (Made in Twenty Album)

Fave of the Week: Winter Love by BoA (Made in Twenty Album)

Welcome the Lunar New Year!! Year of Pig!! or boar if u wish to call that... It had been a really long weekend break for me and many others. But before I go into CNY actual, would like to go back a little more into last week...

Vday came and passed last wednesday... Well I was on pm shift but managed to leave early. Everyone was rushing to meet their loved ones for dinner or what plans they had made. As for me... haha I had nothing planned with anyone just my usual training schedule for runs and swims. While jogging, saw couples having a stroll in the park, sitting under shelter, sending their loved ones home back from their vday outing... ahhh a lovely and charming evening!

Caught Protege on fri night after the Sqn's CNY dinner. Well a good movie actually. Starred by Andy Lau and Daniel Wu. Abt drugs, the abusers, the cops, the drug lord, drug manufacturers. A convincing plot with a built up and touching show. Met up with lz for a swim on saturday morning. It was one great swim since I havent touched the water for quite awhile due to weather and my shifts. Went to town to get whatever leftovers I needed, got a new pair white flip flops!!

The usual visiting on CNY day 1. Met this distant, real pretty cousin from China at my father's side relatives' place. Haha a total breakdown of communications coz her mandarin is so damn fluent and hitched with the local accent while mine was one where the english couldnt translate to mandarin fast enough as my brain couldnt process fast.. You get what I mean dont u... Lol

The other days were plain slacking around and minimal visiting here and there. A relaxed CNY I must say...

2007-02-11T23:33:00.000+08:00

Preparation!

Tuned to Aikoi by Fiction Junction Yuuka (Tsubasa's Chronicle Season 2)

Fave of the week: Wish by Olivia inspi Reira (Nana Anime Series)

Haha sadly i failed my BTT last friday... Next test date in April... Will look forward to it when it comes. Went swimming with Vaccine after BTT. Ohhh as usual the pool filled with people, esp kids. So it was really crowded in the pool, ended up knocking a few ppl while training. Went down to Chinatown for dinner and eating spree again. Found some new places to dig in for desserts and noodles. Really crowded there too... much expected.. Got BoA's Made in Twenty album which comes with a free ad poster!

Will be starting another training phase real soon. Local Asst!! haha training phase will be right smacked into a few upcoming major exercises too. Aint that a great combo for training slots?? Hmmm will expect hard time for the next few months ahead. Work hard and smart Nana!

Still lack of a pair of new pants for CNY... Shld I intend a new pair or just use whatever nice in wardrobe?? *ponders*

Who's the Boss??

2007-02-04T22:34:00.001+08:00

Tuned to My Will by Dream (Inuyasha OP)

Fave of the week: A little pain by Olivia Inspired Reira (Nana anime series)

Little did I expect time to fly so much. I havent met up with china gang for close a year. Thought we did meet up sometime during last mid year... My memory's been failing me pretty much lately. Experiencing a level of short term memory. Stayed over at Alvin's place playing mahjong and playing the board game, "Who's Boss?". A game which requires your mouth to do alot of work, some skill and a tinch of luck with the cards you have. Yeah negotiated, attacked and countered each other during the business dealings! Had some sleep when the sun rised till noon sharp. Felt totally groggy when I went out this afternoon to get my CNY clothes. Speaking of CNY clothes, I got some light coloured tops and a new belt too! Yet to get my pair of new pants though, pondering between casual and formal wear for CNY...

Managed to catch Babel yesterday afternoon at the Grand Cathay. A movie which strings scenes of 3 different countries together. In my opinion it was quite a good movie put together. What was better was Ghost Rider's movie trialer was awesome. So cool! Finally made a trip to Indulgz cafe at Tan Quee Lan Street. Took a period of time to find the place coz the name of this street is foreign to movie. I based my trial on my parents' directions initially. Their bites/starters are pretty good. Main courses were alright. Took the crispy pasta which was one unique dish I recommend for those who love a twist to their usual pasta bolognaise or cream sauce.

Met up with Ling on Tues evening. It was a usual meet up session with a dinner at Pepper Lunch and also to use my 2 Gelare Vouchers for free ice cream waffles. Managed to do some prep shopping for CNY clothes at taka, trying to target what I wanted to get. Thus making my shopping this afternoon a lil easier too.

Hard to find time to train and work out last week due to many PM shifts. Still managed to overcome my laziness and be disciplined to at least run or swim everyday except today coz I wasnt physically nor mentally stable for the day due lack of rest. Will try to resume my training sessions for this new week! ^^

2007-01-28T22:36:00.000+08:00

Disrupted...

Tuned to It's Raining by RAIN (Audition)

Fave of the Week: A little pain by Olivia inspi Reira (Nana Anime series)

The weather returns whipping up Singapore with H2O. When will this new monsoon season cease and go to somewhere else?? Hard to find time to train due weather and PM shifts. That leads me only time to run and jog as it's less of a hassle to do so. This week doesnt seem too good to train too. I wanna run and swim!!!!

Swim trial should be this coming Saturday instead. Weee Heee cant wait to test myself in the pool!! All the best.. Say no to cramps, tireness and the dirty dozen habits of giving up.

Well Well, I have to control my spendings. Every month the expenditure hits above 300, leaving me with nothing much to save up. Thats really bad... Let's see how can we cut down. Switch to hawker centres for meals, stick to movies on weekends, no dota, sango at the arcade big time once a month, avoid cabbing, go drinking once a month... all I can think of...

Time to prepare for CNY!! Clothes, spring cleaning, titbits, room decor... I havent started on any of these...

2007-01-21T20:59:00.000+08:00

More to do

Tuned to wasurenai kara by Gackt

Fave of e week: My Way by Tamaki Nami

Like to start with updates from the week that has just passed us. Sad to say I didnt manage to get thru the swim trial coz my left calve cramped up at 600m. Well that means I would have to reregister for the next one. I have to correct the style and stroke to reduce strain on myself as I am using too much force at the beginning of the swim. Will have to watch my diet and sleep closely with accordance with my training. My mind is all set to make it thru, now's its my body...

Saw 2 seniors left and ORD from NS last friday. Went to the mess for farewell celebrations. Now I am aware that the mess serves dinner every friday night. Last week's was Nasi Bryani. Played open numbers with poker cards with beer as the forfeit and the punishment. Enjoyed ourselves.

Saturday nite was clubbin nite! PowerHouse at St James. My first time in that area of clubs and pubs. Clarke Quay and Boat Quay is still my preferred place for drinks and nights out with my buddies coz its more accessible as compared to HarbourFront. Saw quite a number of very familiar faces and old schoolmates too.

I must swear that absolute abstainence of alcohol till end of Biathlon in March. With the exception of CNY celebrations which I might have a couple of drinks. I have to do it... ...

2007-01-11T23:08:00.000+08:00

Changes & Recollections

Tuned to Long Way Behind by Tamaki Nami

Fave of the week: ni de wei xiao by F.I.R

Another festive season is around the corner... Correction it has already begun!! I m refering to the Lunar New Year.. It's the year of the... PIG!!! Yeah tt's the animal. My father's borned in the year of the pig so does that mean it's his year?? Anyway, I wanna mention of this season coz it made recall what happened exactly a year ago. I was looking for a job then, I was called to work as a Tiger Beer promoter under APB. So... my station was at Taka Cold Storage... and while I was on duty (was considered duty or shift??) CNY songs kept playing on and on... I sorta got drowzy and drifted away from reality after hearing played repeatedly... What actually made me recall this scene was the music played while I was in the gents at PS this afternoon... Oh My Gosh!! (Do all shopping centres play the same CD same track order with no shuffling no remix...) =x

Anyway, RAIN is here... Definitely Rain is not coming, its HERE!!! Haha I am not refering to the Korean abs Hunk RAIN but talking about the weather. Poured this afternoon on my way to Cine. Along the way on the bus ride, saw very memorable scenes of being in CJ for the 1st 3 mths. Going out with ur classmates(inclusive of females this time) to have lunch, hang out, watch movie, take neo prints or just chilling out. Got myself drenched after dashing when green man's up on e traffic lights from Heeren to Cine. Met up with Cherie to catch Pan's Ladybrinth. A gory Fairytale I must say. A different taste and feel of a movie as compared to the recent ones I watched (Death Note 2 , Curse of e Golden Flower, Night at the Museum)

*wonders... how to swim 1.5km in 40min?*

2007-01-08T00:14:00.000+08:00

Resolve

Tuned to Final Memory by Nami Tamaki

Fave tune of the Week: My Way by Nami Tamaki

2nd week of 2007 begins... another 51 weeks or so till 2008. For god sake why am I counting down now... Disregard what was written earlier. Geared on for training for the upcoming Biathlon 07 in March. Before that I gotta pass a Swimming Aptitude test. To swim 1.5km in the pool in below 40min. Will I make it?? That's not for anyone to decide but for me and my soul... Yup hope I will make it to 17 march with David and complete this, making it a personal achievement...

Arrogance, self centered and selfishness... Gotta rid to those dirty habits which are in me... Slowly and steadily, hope to regenerate myself back to what I was meant to be and meant to do... My desires are secondary, my meaning is primary... Hope I can bear this in mind for this year as to consider it a resolution for my inner self...

2007-01-02T23:44:00.000+08:00

みんなさん新年おめでとうございます！！
(Happy New Year Everyone!!)

Tuned to Hitoiri by NANA starring Mika Nakashima (NANA 2 the movie)

Fave of e Week: Truth by REIRA starring Yuna Ito (NANA 2 the movie)

First and foremost a warm welcome to the year 2007. It's gonna be a special year for everyone coz you wont know what to expect just like last year and years before. That makes every year a special one for the new, thrilling, suspense, unpredictable and everything else beyond one's imagination and forecast.

Spend the holidays largely with my family members. Haha didnt manage to get anyone to go out with... nahhhh not the case after all, just that I havent spent much time with them during the weekends due work and new year eve's outing. Caught Death Note 2 and Curse of the E golden flower... Both shows were not too great afterall.. I am fine with Death Note except for the draggy and a chatty ending... Curse of the Golden Flower, I didnt get the story in whole. The show could make a male audience nose bleed though...

Got Nana 2 OST CD. Yeah like duh for a Nana fan is typing here. Cant wait to watch the movie regardless the weak ratings given in Japan. Nana 1 was a hit then and why did Nana 2 didnt turn out as well as the predecessor?? Coz the cast of roles like Hachiko aka Komatsu Nana, Ren and Shin changed... And the audience definitely had a sense of affection for the original cast... But who cares Mika Nakashima's Nana and Yuna Ito's Reira, thats good enough...

Cosplaying... Now that's what's in the mind of mine the past week... I cant describe anything but by the word "Kakko ii ne!!" (Cool).. Not just the Shinigami costumes uin Bleach, but Gundam as well as others like Final Fantasy, FM Alchemist, Tsubasa Chronicle and more!! Most SG cosplayers custom make their costume... How how how?? what should I do?? Follow their craze and fulfil this inner desire to cosplay too?? ..... Maybe I will afterall .... Just wait and see....

Being at ECP at wee hours with post showers weather cant be described more than great!!! Found some level inner peace in myself.... I need more time to meditate, reflect and retreat from reality for the time being... More specifically from singapore... I need a break outta Singapore!!!

2006-12-26T00:30:00.000+08:00

Tis e Season... Lalalalala...

Tuned to Ready for Love by Cascada

Fave Song of e Week: Truth by Yuna Ito (From Nana 2 the movie)

Just came home from a Xmas outing with shooting buddies. Had dinner at NYNY. Disappointing though, the food wasnt as nice as the last time I went there. They seem to "nerv" the portions too. Guess I wont be giving a next visit there in future. Ben & Jerry's VerMonster!!! 20 scoops of ice cream with a great deal of toppings in a single bucket for 88 Bucks!! Looking at 8 people gorging the ice cream down. Simply great!!

Met up with tyt & nai on thurs evening for a movie, A night at e Museum. A hilarious movie made for e festive season and e family. Vivocity's GV MAX Cinema is simply huge and spacious. Quite like the place. However and sad to say the place was stained by our local viewers with wrappers and popcorn droppings all over. A disgusting yet common reflection of locals here.

2006-12-17T22:09:00.000+08:00

Lost & Found

Tuned to Goodbye Days by YUI (from Movie Midnight Sun)

Fave of the Week: Blue Bird by Hamasaki Ayumi

It's mid December already... Year's gonna come to an end... Comes Xmas and NY bash once more. A new cycle of events shines... Unforeseen and Unpredicted events come our way... BUT BEFORE ALL THAT!!! There's still some days left till we bid farewell to 2006... Many more things to do...

Collected my new hp yest afternoon. Was really bored waiting for my number to announced before I could collect the phone and acknowledge various legal documents and penalties' notification... Entertained myself with smsing, got dead after awhile... Went to get a copy of Business Times, a really interesting and informative piece of read. Bump into Hui Ze too, was supposed to meet her later in the afternoon but guess I didnt have enough time to spare in e late afternoon coz I placed all attention to my new phn, trying to get songs and pictures into the W850I. A combination of my phn and mp3 player really enables me to have more free hands for shopping!!

There was also a AOS/ AOSS Gathering at HabourCity Restaurant. Ate abit and drank quite abit... Had wine, red label, absolute citron, cognac... etc... Gotta send a drunk man home after the event.. My 1st encounter with someone drunk... An eyeopener for me. Went home to puke some crab, fish and bacon rolls into the toilet bowl... Thankfully i didnt make a big mess in the restroom...

Got a copy of Ayumi's 8th Album. It came with a poster too!! Surprisingly the poster is still nicely rolled up sitting on my study desk. Have no intention to put it up any soon due to the confined space on the walls of my room. How many years has it been since I turned into a fan of Ayu... a good 5 years I suppose since Sec 2..

Time to read..

2006-12-05T23:06:00.000+08:00

Normalisation

Tuned to Taisetsu na mono from Guitar Freaks V

Fave of the Week: Strike On by Move (from Initial D 3rd series)

The start of the new month marks the end of the long dreaded AOP. It was a pretty dead orientation program which brought me tons of disappointment and frustration. Had to wake up everyday in unearthly hours. Not that I hadnt woke up at those timings before, but it was hard to adjust I swear... The feeling wearing a beret once more was just soo unadjustable... How I shld put it, I just problems adjusting back to AFS... The only thing I looked fwd to everyday was eating out at the mess and crapping with my buddies..

Got 2 new holes on my left. The old one closed on me during BMT. Met up with Shooting Peeps on Saturday nite down at Holland V. Chilled out for a drink or 2 and reminiscing old times. Tried on some new stuff like Yebisu and Black, Asahi Black, Hoegarden, Kilkenny... Okay both Yebisu and Asahi Black tasted like some fermented soy sauce alcohol... Haha definitely not my type... Headed down to MOS thereafter... More than 10 mths since I stepped into an clubbing arena... I shld say it felt good to step inside again. ^^

Am on leave at the moment for a couple more days. Shall finish some unfinish domestic business. Met up with Cherie last evening for Tenacious D and Dinner. A damn funny show I must say. Cock Push Up!! lol... Nostalgic... to be in town on a weekday evening. Feels odd somehow to not see so many ppl in town. Theng popped outta nowhere at the walkway b/n wisma and taka. Had my earphones and remote for the psp sent for repairs, wonder when I will get it back... Really inconvenient not to have the remote around.

2006-11-26T23:05:00.000+08:00

The World doesnt revolve around me, but otherwise...

Tuned to Juan Lian by FIR

Fave of the Week: Perhaps Love (Sarang in ga yo) from Goong Princess Hours

And here it continues, my bro bday was on the 13th, cool in the midst of his Os. Fortunately there no papers for him on that day, thus this bday mood of his didnt sour up. I remember my 16th bday where Physics MY exam striked the on the very day. Couldnt concentrate and revert tt celebration energy into the paper... Oh well, whats history will still be.

On the 17th... tt was 2 fridays back. Met up with Xin and Linus for dinner. Oh ho dinner was a huge bomb to our wallets at Traders' Hotel. However the bomb landed in our tummies with a sense of satisfaction as there were great food. Tried searching for a bar to chill out after the heavy meal. Goodwood Park didnt offer us any, so did Hyatt, proceeded to Meritus Mandarin Observers' Lounge. Haha a mesmerizing view from 37 storeys, of Orchard Road and how Singapore is so starry at night. (Not as starry as Hong Kong though) A pretty romantic place to sum up.

Celebrated my FSS Family Day yesterday morning. Yup a day to relax, slack, laze, eat, enjoy the programmes planned. Awards were given out to outstanding personnel, prizes were given to those who were guided by the Goddess of Luck. Met up with the old time Project S for Dota. Haha I got thrashed pretty badly as usual. Have only been training with AIs which is so different from human players. Macho Mageritas and Golden Ale for chilling rocks.. (became too sehhh till I missed my stop by NR3 home)

Been in the habit of being late. Well not late for work of coz ( there'll be severe consequences ... Duh...) But in every other thing. Maybe I am taking things TOO easy sometimes. Complacency... But still there's a still bit of seriousness when work comes into the picture or when money comes into the picture... Maybe its the driving factor that determine the level of effort I put in, in everything I do.. So in this case it will be money and punishment.

Lend a helping hand to those around you. Even if u are too lazy to do it, still try to make an effort to. The rewards and after effect brings a sense of satisfaction to you. Pull a black and stern face wherever I go last time, try to smile and be happy nut to start others' days now.

2006-11-11T13:36:00.000+08:00

Birth of a new Soul... NANA

Tuned to Geu De Ji Geum by Lyn (K Drama Full House)

Fave of the Week: Kiseki by BeforU

Had Initiation on Thursday... So what is it all about anyway?? It's basically a ceremony or program which newbies go thru to attain their callsign. After drinking alot beer, gulping down and forcing it down and puking it out... After the question and answer session and fun time drinking, I finally got mine... Presenting NANA... Yup tt's my callsign. I adopted NANA due the recent movie I just viewed, NANA. Played by Mika Nakashima and got moved by the show and impressed by songs played in the movie. Had a real good time then... Making it an indelible mark in my life...

Had some days of off and leave this week... Tagged along with Cindy to NUS for her Film History Lecture.. Sure NUS is filled with people... Many many Loads Loads... Had tt serious atmosphere of mugging when I stepped onto its campus. Haha havent seen such an environment in ages since As... Miss it somehow.... Had dinner at Holland V at a number of eateries, sorta a meal hopping from restaurant to restaurant... Finally get to take a ride in her car... Yeah female drivers expectedly a more cautious bunch of drivers...

Weather has been predictable the pass week... Bright till the late mornings and early afternoons... Dark Clouds start to build up during mid afternoon or sometimes after lunch and starts pissing and striking bolts all over the shop. Haha pretty crappy somehow since the monsoon season is here coupled with occasional haze from our friendly neighbour down south of us.

A worrier I am, A Dreamer I am... Adding them up will result in wormer... Am I a worm per se?? I wont wanna be one... Unless I am a Wurm instead of a Worm... Telling myself to not give up and endure till the end in my tasks... It's hard to keep tht endurance and strive within myself... I hope I can pull it thru and be mindful, careful and cautious in what I do...

2006-10-29T12:50:00.000+08:00

Relive, Revive, Return

Tuned to Endless Story by Yuna Ito (From NANA the movie)

Fave of the week: Scenerio by BeforU

Took a break from recording my life down. Had a few outings and gatherings, China Gang at Prata House. Although we spent only a short while there, it was a great time out and get together. Nice to see everyone in good shape!! There we had Dan's Bday Celebrations... Yup lesson learnt, not to get the raspberry cheesecake from coffee cheese cake before proceeding to an outdoor environment... Thanks to James the cake melted and became some cream pasta like thing... Proceeded to Part 2 for refreshments of beer at brewerkz, my first time taking down the tower!! After of which proceeded to cafe iguana for macho mageritas!! Thnx to swwx all of us became screw loose after the drinks... Pics can be found in my links ^^

p.s. The Megazord looks real cool!! lol

Met up with xin and e rest ytd evening for prata yet again at prata house... Havent met him in ages already. Wish him the best for his overseas attachment to Aussie and before his departure for Aussie, shall meet up for a dinner like last time. Ha... Omg havent touched dota for a while, and i actually played ytd at old time place tekka mall. Haha, rusty as usual but still got my basics right somehow... Cant seem to do well in mid game... hmmmmm oh well ha.

Never had been deep thought for quite awhile, but if one has not much to do guess he has lots of time to daydream. Or maybe even if he is too caught up with his work, he might deviate to neverland to daydream as well. My mind was filled with thoughts of what to do after ORD. The definitely must dos will include dying of hair, piercing of 2 holes on left, tattoo on back, overseas trip to Japan and other countries if possible. If time still persist, will get a job to sustain expenses.

Pop by Vivocity tt sunday... It's a pretty HUMONGOUS place I must say... Definitely reminds me of Habour City Centre back at HK Tsim Sa Tsui. About 60-70% of shops are up and ready, there are still more to come. Now what I like about Vivocity is the open air roof, beautiful place in the evenings for couples if there are not too many people arnd. Good view of Sentosa's Ferry Terminal with the Merlion on the right hand side as well as the Cable Car and the bridge.. Splendid isnt it??

Now how about within these 2 years of NS (right to say 1.5 years more)... Well I have considerations to take up short courses at the polys or private schools. Sounds pretty fun to attend a course and be certified after tt... Increasing the level of my portfolio. Also to learn driving?? Always have thoughts of owning a car and "zhnging" it to fly like a rocket on the roads... But come to think of the expenses to own one really makes one step back and rethink and prioritise.

Guess now's not the right time... then when?? I ask myself... Haha, how do I go about doing it?? With the usual tools?? or come up with new, untested ideas which do me well or blow me up into shambles?? I dont know... I can ask no one since its my own problem... But I must be true to myself .... Not like what happened a year ago... I am stained with hate but I do not care if not it will be stumbling block to move on... Be true to yourself, Brendan...

2006-10-14T07:25:00.000+08:00

NANA the Movie

On the Glidepath...

Tuned to Endless Story by Yuna Ito (played by Reira in NANA the movie)

Fave Tune of the Week: Glamorous Sky by Mika Nakashima ft Black Stones (NANA the movie)

Obsession with NANA and the songs from tt movie... Time to catch the anime as well too! Good songs packed in within. Maybe I'll press for tt to be my callsign, just a setback tt it sounds pretty girly for a male c/s. Anyway, initiation is coming soon!! So most prob I'll be home half drunk or drunk after the whole event.

Just had a Deepavali celeberations in Squadron last night. Had good drinks and good food going around, beer, wine hard liquor and crackers.. Havent been in contact with hard liqour for such a long while, lost touch abt controlling the amount tt I should take in. Can remember the last time I puked out a few hours later after gulping some weird tasting liqour =x

Trying to figure out how to effectively play VP Lenneth which I just bought last weekend. Hmmm, not the same RPG which i have tried all these while. Good Good, a game for a change from what I have been in touched with.

Fear of loosing the time tt I might have to do things which I desire after I get CATed in my positions... The afternoon shift will disallow me to accompany my parents for workouts in the evenings... While morning shift doesnt pretty much affect me less stretching it till late if there's some events or tasks to be completed.

Not to look back and make one despaired from those ever bad memories... I'll bear tt in mind..

2006-10-01T23:09:00.000+08:00

Things picking up...

Tuned to Glamourous Sky by Mika Nakashima (from movie: NANA)

Fave pick of the week: True by Ryan Cabera

Wanna highlight a few main updates lately. So Cool!! Training has began and I am a trainee once more. What does a trainee life mean?? Study!! Always wanting to learn more!! Ask Questions!! These are qualities for the National Best Learner Award I believe... Had a BBQ on the last fri of the Sep with visitors all the way from the Base at the Far East. A really fun and enjoyable moment to help in the program and BBQing the food. Just like those times when we had chalets and BBQing at fren's place..

Had a Bday cum Shooting gathering the previous saturday. Was late due RSAF walk-a-jog. Just to touch on the walk-a-jog. Despite dragging myself to SAFTI for it, it was a worthwhile morning spent there. Why?? met up with my coursemates who suay suay kenna walk-a-jog. Had Bfast at Macs and gossiped over the table as usual. Ok back to the shooting gathering, unforgetably we took a neoprint that day too. How long has it been since my last one... I got no idea too... Guess about a year or so... Haha I am still addicted to designing screen of the neoprint machine.

Been frantically searching for English Songs, those which were famous, catchy tunes and those oldies which I longed forgotten. Do help me in this mission to salvage these songs. Domou Arigatou Gozaimasu!

2006-09-18T23:18:00.000+08:00

And the Engines is gonna start!!

Tuned to Wish by S.E.N.S

Fave Song of the Week: Christmas Memories by Beautiful Day

Feels great to be back in AFS last Friday for Grad. Yup the Grad from Basic AOS/AOSS Course!! Yup the 75th batch!! Got in touch with my other fellow NSF coursemates where we started bitching abt our trg and our new OPs environment. Haha, ever-lasting chatting where an end can never be placed on it. With a lift from my future colleague of TAB, Charles, we went down to SIM after the day at AFS. Sat down with him for a meal at MegaBites!! Probably tts where I'll be for the years to come?? Chat heavily abt relationship matters over the meal and our future anxieties, also what he would be expecting upon coming to TAB. Dont worry my fren, it'll be fine at TAB!

Met up with zhi and jj for dinner at Bt Timah. Yup the usual 3 having a occasional gathering for we are the few in class who live in the western area. And there was the fave sambal STINGRAY!! I definitely over-ate on friday... -_-

And wala, a class gathering of lunch with those from 1st 3 mths. Yup, quite a number turned up eventually. I am totally pleased and glad to see everyone and everything in good shape. Some things just dont change with Nai being her usual self... ^^ The never-ending chatterbox!

Still on Exercise and IMF alert, nevertheless I see progress ahead in my trg. Gonna start on my trg for airpic this friday. And these few upcoming days I'll be frantically preparing, reading and stealing info from every possible source, organic or non-organic, living or non living to get me ready for my trg. To be CATed I must!!! lol

Just one thing I wanna get it out of me... that's none other than the tiredness which I am facing. Alright it is more of lethargic and ache. Why?? I am unable to verify too...

2006-09-13T22:32:00.000+08:00

Hope for my eyes to be opened...

Tuned to A Song is Born by Hamasaki Ayumi

Fav Song of the Week: Qian Li Zhi Wai by Jay Chou & Fei Yu Qing

To say I am ready... I am not... To say I am moving... I am not... To say I am good to go.... I am not... To say I am happy... I might be... To say I am satisfied... I am...

Tired to iliterate further... Aching from my evening work out... Busy keeping awake during OPS hours... Persevere to the end, as training shall soon begin... Now that's more like it!!

2006-09-06T22:35:00.000+08:00

Isogashi Isogashi... Busy Busy....

Tuned to I am... by BeforU

Song of the Week: Love Wing by Hiro

Tasked with jobs to do, many to complete... Each day, a new day welcomes new taskings, new allocations, new things to do, new jobs to be completed... Be it papercut, administrative work, documentation, refurnishing of boards, gardening, everything u would name it... In preparation for the upcoming major audit...

There comes along to make things more challenging and crazy, it will be the IMF and WB Conference, advertising 4 million smiles... ... Dont think they will get my smile for it for it just means more work for many people, more security measures, more chances of terror attacks, more road closures, more red tape and last but not least, more inconvenient for everyone else...

To spice up things will be exercise... Tmr's a load of briefs to attend, to stay awake and pay attention I must for these coming weeks. To stay healthy I will without fail my weekly workouts run, gym, swim shall not be discontinued in the midst of these obstacles... Try my very best then...

2006-09-03T22:17:00.000+08:00

That's what they call... Sai Kang...

Tuned to Treasure by Hiro

Fav song of the week: Merry Go Round by Mai Hoshimura (Yakitate! Japan ED2)

The last 3 days of the weekdays, I was called upon to help out in the preparations for the RSAF Day Parade 06 at my residing base. The weather played a crucial role in our fatigue duty, coz we couldnt work when there was lightning risk CAT in issue. Heavy downpour, made us do extra like wiping the seats, getting rid of the water puddles with 1st generation equipment called brooms or brushes u may even call them. Tools we used were primitive like rags and water, no cleaning agent though. Thought there'd a standard form of tools tt fatigue party uses since big events as such happens in a continual basis. Manual Manual Work. Oh well... nothing to say, but I am glad that I am out of it... for now...

Tried out the restaurant down at citilink, a rather new one, New York New York?? I supposed tt's the name of the restaurant. Good Stuff they have there esp the main courses and sandwiches. The Great Yankee shldnt be missed by the naked eye as its 8 inches wide and abt 2 2 inches tall?? That would definitely make one recall the time when I had my King Brew Burger at Brewerkz!! A ultimate killer burger with 2 beef patties of 240g each, thick and heavy splurges of sauces with wedges or fries... thats what u called ownage when u finish it by yourself!! The prices are pretty reasonable for the mains at NYNY, though the desserts and drinks might be overpriced as compared to other similar restaurants, but still good stuff to satisfy your taste buds makes your money worth.

One might notice I am living in the past with the kind of songs I listen to. Backtracking to my younger days crazed interest in JPOP music. SPEED!!! Of coz I cannot miss them at all with White Love. Hiro's own singles Treasure and Confession. ZONE's Secret Base is a song where makes one tear and everyone would simply know the tune. And many more around, browsing arnd YouTube, sure brings me at least 4 -6 years back.

Upon chatting with someone overnight, it reminded one trait of myself, I worry just alil too much at times. It's simply not easy to become not a worrier, but slowly I am trying my best to take things easier and with a lighter tinge, instead of digressing a forecasted problem too deeply. That was quite unhealthy, resulting in one of the minor health problem which I have, mild hbp. So as a message to all, just dont worry too much sometimes, just be on ur 2 feet and act from the point the problem arises if a contingency cant be planned beforehand. Like what someone has told me, "f u are gonna worry the things' tt are gonna happen, it will still happen anw"

IMF's coming to town, Audit's coming, exercise is coming, training's gonna start, get ready the blow of the jet engine, and take off to greater heights. To overcome, I must.

2006-08-27T21:12:00.001+08:00

Still Uncomfortable... Somehow...

Tuned to Merry Go Round by Mai Hoshimura (Yakitate! Japan ED2)

Song of the Week: yu ying hua by F.I.R

Frankly speaking, I am still not very used to the life in FSS. Somehow or rather, I cant visualise fitting in a lifestyle for the next 1.5 years or more in tower. Maybe I might just need more time to adjust like what happened in BMT and AFS. There's always a period of orientation and familiarization. Then things will fall in place, settle and u will just proceed thereafter.

Brought back memories from the end of 2004, whereby I was clocking some CIP hrs together with Theng at St Luke's Hospital. Haha, those were the days man... The shredding machine umpteen times tilled it really pissed me off. Had to use blades like scissors to "unjam" the machine, dig out the bits stuck at the rollers. goshhh.... And I do remember lashing out strings of vulgarities with Theng around =S. So this time I am at the admin area of tower, shredding paper... Well the machine still jammed but not as often coz I know it when to go ahead and when to stop using it! More documents awaits for me to shred when I get back tmr...

One of the record weekends thus far coz I am practically at home most of the off office hours... Well there's a reason for this as dear friend wei li got a marathon on sunday mrg and dear ME gotta go back on saturday mrg for area cleaning. Tired Tired... I havent started to clean my own room despite the hardwork cleaning up the tower...

Wonder when will training actually start... Can't wait to be CATed.

2006-08-10T21:10:00.000+08:00

Deep thru the stronghold...

Tuned to Tokyo Drift (Fast and Furious) by Teriyaki Boyz

Song of the week: Invoke by T.M. Revolution (Gundam Seed OP1)

Decided to ban the use of my mastercard altogether to reduce the spending level. Hopefully things will improve and my level of expenditure weekly will not be a deficit case each month. Just to sum up, I am overspending in food and games, anything else with relation with leisure activities.

Reported to my new workplace this morning. The bus was packed when I boarded it since it serves for plenty of military installations in the area. My place of residence in the day is deep deep into the base. The tower!!! Cant be compared in size and height with the ones at Paya Lebar or Sembawang, but it feels much much cosier there anw. Spent of my time outside, absorbed with the green serenity and what nature provides as music.

Will be having packed food for the rest of my vocation during NS since I am all the way in the tower. Haha say bye bye to scanning of my 11B at the cookhouse anymore unless I return to AFS for courses or visits. Seems pretty bustling in the day when everyone is engaged with the work, officers, specs, man... everyone... I left alone for the day since my trg doesnt begin until the next day and the following days ahead. Gonna be tough for the next few days since I gotta wake up very early to accompany for airfield inspection. -_-''

Was in time to join the Flight for photo taking together with the F-16, 2 caravans and 2 fire vehicles at the background, with the tower as the backdrop. Stood long on the runway with evening sunray falls...

2006-08-06T22:54:00.000+08:00

Awaken! Nationalism, Patriotism, Loyalty... (wadeva...)

Tuned to Seventh Moon (Macross 7 OP)

Fave Song for the week : Victory by JAM Project (Super Robot Taisen MX OST)

August!! This draws the attention of the locals, coz NDP is arnd the corner. For anyone who is foreign, NDP will mean National Day Parade not some hokkien vulgarity. Well NDP hasnt started, so thou shall make some comments on the observations prior to NDP.

The putting up of the National Flag, definitely few this year. Well at least for my area of residence, I dont many flags flying high outside the HDB estates, shops and other places of interest. What does this mean?? Citizens unhappy?? well cant be helped since there has been a rise of consumer prices, inflation of our currency, making it hard to cope with our finances.

The National Day Song, doesnt seem to be played often, to make it a tune stuck to one's mind where one can recite and sing along when the song is played. So unlike the last few songs by Steph Sun, Kit Chan or Tanya Chua. Their songs are still kept neat in my mind. Well maybe, schooling then was part of a factor that we gotta sing the national day song for tt particular year. But that's only a minor factor, more imptly, I question why isnt played tt often on the media??

Repeated are the genre of performances and 'highlights' for NDP itself, the parade, march pass, performances and fireworks (where we get to see our taxes burn into sparks!!). Nevertheless I gotta catch it since I got friends involved!! All the best guys!!

My course informally ended last friday with the final assessment. So I am just waiting for my posting to my future air base.... Recently signed some forms to vow not to blog of any info related to what I'd learned in my course, and the issue of contraband items. Well I find it pretty redundant to us NSFs, as the info we receive is merely tip of the iceberg, moreover what can we get out from the military in just 2 years of service. Besides, do I look like the type of those who will betray my homeland?? ^^

2006-07-26T21:01:00.000+08:00

More to the real thing now...

Tuned to Love* 3 by FIR

Song of the week: Honou no Tobira by FictionJunction YUUKA

Upon proceeding to the prac phase of training, it began with a theory test on the 2nd day. Pretty easy to pass since its lowered to a 50% passing mark. However, it doesnt look and sound as easy it seemed for the actual prac sessions. Many countless procedures and preparations to be done before a tower opens. And what's covered now is very basic with the few basic radio and comms system only... Simulated trg already strained many and made many laughing stalks during the actual practice itself. Well definitely, a level of enjoyment was in the room while we role played some minor problems on the airfield with the guidance of our instructors.

No joke when our 1st prac test begins from tmr till friday. I foresee many blunders made and forgotten procedures due to removal of usage of manuals during the test. That is certainly one big disadvantage!!! More to come, more to come....

2006-07-21T22:51:00.000+08:00

Return...

Tuned to Promise by TiA (Yakitate! Japan OP2)

Song of the Week : Honou no Tobira by FictionJunction YUUKA (Gundam Seed Destiny Insert)

It's halfway through my course in AFS. I enjoy the after work lifestyle which includes swimming, gymming and sports. Havent been into frequent and regular exercises since after I passed my NAPFA in J2. Wonderful Wonderful!! 8 of us left today for they have been posted out various SQN and vocations. As for me, I am gonna stay on another 3 weeks for practical training for air tower controller duties.

Recently in the beginning of this week, we had some biochemical defence trg. Haha oh my.... the suit and cover all was a killer. It stinks, stuffy, warm and hard to breathe in tht suit. Well we look pretty much like Darth Vader underlings after putting the suit on. The final test would be the ... GAS CHAMBER down at Pasir Laba Campsite where we were exposed to tear gas... Gosh, the feeling is just once in a lifetime, tearing and stinging on ur face after removal of the mask in the chamber.

While as for the past few weeks, it had been the consolidation of theory work followed by a major exam. Managed to pass it after some revision nights before, with a slight decision from the cant be missed WORLD CUP!!! Tried hard to stay up to watch the finals but slept thru the 2nd half... LOL...

Spending pretty much on weekends, and I cant seem to control it!!! HAHAHA

2006-06-24T12:26:00.000+08:00

To the air... not quite...

Tuned to Houki Kumo by Rythem (Yakitate! Japan OP)

It's been about a week since I started the life as a PTE in a totally new environment. Currently on a course in a school... The Air Force School. A whole new experience of what a military organisation is like. Unlike BMT where most training is conducted outdoors, the need to march from location to location, high level of regimentation and adheration to military standards, use of variant languages and dialects in lessons and instruction dissemination, a large population, a gather of majority of NSFs inclusive of the commanders and instructors, AFS provides a different image and impression.

Looking at the people there, many are already specs, CPLs and groups of PTEs going through various courses in the school. Warrants and junior officers are plenty for both gender, senior officers are seen occasionally (if you are lucky). A refined place that is as the language used to converse and interprete is in english. Made by the OC AOSS clearly stated only english is to be used during training hours 0800-1730. Instructors are usually regulars of Staffs and above, experienced with the organisation for almost a decade at the minimal. My class is a mix of people, from regulars to NSFs, 3 ladies forming the minority of less than 10% of the cohort.

Facilities can be used by all, trainees and perm staff. That includes the mess, sports facilities, and you name it. As compared to BMT where privileges are limited to instructors and officers only, AFS serves to be different which gained my recognition. Main places I visit after the day's activities would include the mess where a light drink can be accompanied with the viewing of tv programmes. Pool tables and a few arcade game machines are available too. The chicken cutlet served there is tasty and enjoyed by most personels there. What's more is that there's a karaoke lounge to engage group gatherings and beer sold at a low rate as well.

So from the time of after dinner (in some cases after CAI at 1930), it's ur free time to do self study, personal administration and whatever you wish in the compound. Flexibility of lifestyle is just what I had wished for a orgnisation like the armed forces. Uninterupted when it's your own personal time which is so unlike BMT where at any point of time from 0545-2230, you are subjected to orders and instructions to perform tasks of various nature.

Personally the lessons are not of an easy level for me to grasp as it tend to be of a science nature. I have return most of my science knowledge as well as the level of observation with a scientific mind to comprehend is very weak. Radar, comms systems with references to soundwaves, EM waves (what we been through this week) had not been an easy feat. Try try try...

Would be suspending my Wednesday of nights off to a nights out. This is because it's a hassle to travel to school back and forth as the distance is pretty far. Thus it would be more feasible to be staying over in AFS instead of staying a night at home and reporting back the following morning. Gotta try to awake during lessons and do some occasional revision from time to time so that i will not lag behind...

2006-06-10T09:42:00.000+08:00

Time.. needed..

Tuned to Yume no Kakera by ZONE

While I am loosing (or maybe), have already lost track of what's happening outside, it's interesting to know I am that concern. Rather I am more concerned with what's going to happen or what happened. That I am refering to the future as well as history. How should I put it in words...

Looking towards the future... who doesnt?? Tell me Tell me who doesnt wish to know what would happen of him? what he will do later?? Would he succeed?? All this questions lingering in one's mind all concern the future... Planning what to do during block leave, planning what to do after I receive my posting, planning whether I should do this or that... Assessing the situation and the feasibility of my plans so as not to be over ambitious. And what my plans are?? No intentions of telling anyone too... Just wish to highlight the fact I am neglecting the present and concentrating on the future and the past...

The past I refer doesnt date back to just to just a few years. It's not my past, neither my childhood... Like what I said very much earlier in my entry, History. Games have rake my interest of gods and goddesses, wars, devils and demons, as well as alil of global trends for the past few decades. Reading reading Reading reading... Should have realised that this past time is still, the most beneficial and enlightening.

2006-06-08T13:25:00.000+08:00

The 7 Bushido Ethics (extracted)

義 – Gi – Rectitude
勇 – Yū – Courage
仁 – Jin – Benevolence
礼 – Rei – Respect
誠 – Makoto or 信 - Shin– Honesty
名誉 – Meiyo – Honor,Glory
忠義 – Chūgi – Loyalty

As I see it, it resembles alil to the common chant before my water parades back during BMT, the SAF Core Values. Loyalty to Ctry, leadership, discipline, professionalism, fighting spirit, ethics, care for soldiers.

Presenting... Japan's Seven Gods of Fortune

Ebisu, god of fishers or merchants, often depicted carrying a cod or sea bass.
Daikokuten (Daikoku), god of wealth, commerce and trade. Ebisu and Daikoku are often paired and represented as carvings or masks on the walls of small retail shops.
Bishamonten, god of warriors.
Benzaiten (Benten-sama), goddess of knowledge, art and beauty.
Fukurokuju, god of happiness, wealth and longevity.
Hotei, the fat and happy god of abundance and good health.
Juroujin (Gama), god of longevity.

2006-06-07T16:53:00.000+08:00

In a Flash... it has begun...

When one disembarks from a ferry at Tekong island, he must be wondering what might become of him? what discomforts he will face? whether he can cope? the lifestyle? the chances of breaking down? basically to sum up, these ponders are fears, anxiety and inquisitive nature of us... Personally, I went in without much worries, in fact with a peace of mind, not having any of family members to see me off into the place of govt property... the military...

This entry will be a rather elaborate one, consisting of chain of events which took place during my BMT, the feelings and emotions of one going thru (in my point of view) as well as about the ppl.

Upon recall, it will be the unforgetable Day 1, where the oath and swear in ceremony took place. Pledging ourselves loyal to the country, the president and people. To me, it didnt make much of sense coz what matters most is that we got to be loyal to ourselves and families before we can take on a greater role. I am sure not everyone there had the loyalty and emotions for themselves and families. Videos shown, a dialouge session took place, a lunch break with the taste of the cookhouse, everything looking so good... so far... Then the true side surfaces after the families and friends leave the place, where the regementation and discipline comes to into place. I am pretty used to it since I had such experience for the pass 6 years of my life.

The duffel bag, field pack, SBO and all the accessories were all provided... Carrying all of these up to our bunks was a totally unforgetable experience. Sweat drops ran down our faces and the flustered faces after one succeeds in bringing his "barang barang" up. I was on the forth storey. A little high... but not the highest level... The hair cut, the countless occasions where we gathered at the lift lobby to black tape our SBO and Field Pack (what binds the SAF together is.... BLACK TAPE!!! haaha), the documentation of administrative papers, lessons so on and so forth.

The 1st 2 weeks were dreadfully long for many as they were totally unused to such a lifestyle change, truely a turning point in their lives. I am not boasting or anything but I got used to the lifestyle after a couple of days or so... Missing your familiy, friends, possessions, freedom to roam and to sum up, it will be liberty which a civilian has. I gaze into the open seas every evening and night. In the evening, upon looking into the far horizons, the sun sets, the sea crafts sailing, occasional sea birds fly pass as well as the sea breeze brushing my face, creating a speechless view and incredible feeling or lightweight... At night, reflecting, wrapping up the day and enjoying light conversations with whoever passes by.

A routine lifestyle is led by many there, the underlings, the superiors as well as the service personnels... Paying compliments, facing the flag when the clock strikes 6 both day and night, waking up at 0530, lights off 2230, these became more comfortable as the days pass by and it fuses to the comfort zone of one. Have to remind you that the reason is I am in PES C modified BMT, leaving me with ample time to reflect and comment. I doubt I will have the time and energy if I land up in a PES A/B training.

How was time spent there... well half the time is waiting and... more waiting... Absolutely true... No colouration, no lies no doubt... Events to highlight include CO's dialouge which was pointless, Parades, IFC (field craft) a whole new experience for most including myself about jungle survival and combat, technical handling of the rifle and hand grenade, IPPT, Games Day.... Field Camp was hella experience, meeting the living conditions in the outfield, uncomfortable "bedding", many's favourite Combat Rations, the shit zone, and the long sleep hours given. The range, where one enjoyed the arcade shooting at the IMT and found discomfort in the live range, shooting live rounds making one a bobo shooter... =) The occassions where we reported sick, waiting for about 3-4 hours to be released from the medical centre... Not to forget the many nights of instant noodles, snacks, games and blasting of loud music!!

Well the greatest gift given will be the ppl whom you come across during your stay... 1st the buddy was the most important figure around and both buddies gotta place full trust in each other, rely on each other and look out for one another. I was blessed with a vigilant and capable buddy, we would always try to be a better and useful buddy to each other. Your bunk mates, a beautiful mix of on the ball, slack and lazy, retarded, boastful and proud, blur, quiet leaders, helpful as well as the worriers... The platoon commander was a really capable as well as friendly PC. Although he might explode at times, but it was necessary as to wake us up from our dreams and nightmares. The Platoon Sgt, always sarcastic and also stringent but nevertheless capable young man, our sect commander uh... friendly and also slack at times, not of the traditional kind of Sgts around. The Platoon ICs, a mix of the ON, Blur, crazy and jovial kinds. Not to forget our OC and CSM who were very nice men, CSM was always vulgar and jovial but still maintain the standards around the company.

The people around is what that makes the BMT experience an experience. Everyone include ownself makes everything happens happen. Not the facilities nor the programme, neither the food... Talking about food, it seems the food section was left out with little mention in the beginning. Well the cookhouse food is overall average, some days are good some days are just bad for your tastebuds and inedible. Many love Western as well as Ice Cream Days!!

What goes on in one's mind would usually be "when will I leave this place and be at home?", "how are my friends/GF doing?", "when's the next mealtime", "time moves so slow", "I am hungry!", "why am I doing this?? for who? what?" and everything else which the person was used to before being enlisted... It's perfectly normal but it would be twist one's mind and adapt fast if not it will be more painful a experience to be through....

I was paid a visit by an officer whom I worked with when I was serving SJI NPCC. He is a service side officer. Shared a rather long conversation about the situation here, our future paths, current issues and some common sense to take... Feels good to have some to come by to chat as most of the time you dont much to do during your admin time except rest and eat. (well basically we got more admin time as compared to the PES A/B ppl)

Everyone from now will lead different paths in their vocations in different units. So it'll be whole new experience for many while a continuation or progress to next level for others. Storeman, clerical duties, non combat vocations will be very common for many. But still if it's possible, try not to let the weak organisation and different standards of the military bog you down... It's pretty obvious that the system and planning is not to the optimal but I am sure there would be chances to improve bit by bit, inch by inch, step by step to make better...

2006-05-28T23:43:00.001+08:00

Ready.. OTOT Carry On!

Tuned to Fly Away by FIR

Thats part of the drill at the range. When's my range?? It will be this coming tues and wed. Pray for fine weather and everything to go well without any.. MISFIRES!! or anything stupid. Had been at the IMT for the past few days, training our grping sizes, snap and deliberate targets as well as night shooting. More of mental tireness rather than physically coz of the duration of each detail. However it was worth the time and effort coz it's one of enjoyed aspects of BMT.

Didnt get the throw the live grenade... why?? coz I couldnt jump over the bay in case the grenade landed in my bay?? yeah that was the reason. That left me to take time out to see the MO. Long queue as usual and until now I have not recovered... after taking 6-7 different kinds of pills for 4 days. That shows the effectiveness of one seeing a MO at BMTC.

Shall retell my BMT life another day... about 10 more days I will be graduating from BMT... 6 June!!! 6 June!!

2006-05-28T23:43:00.000+08:00

2006-05-21T18:51:00.000+08:00

I am 19 today!!!

2006-05-13T01:43:00.000+08:00

4 more weeks to go...

Tuned to Kiss GoodBye by Wang Li Hong

Just dont get it, dont get it dont get it, the restrictions regarding a person in the army uniform to protect the SAF's image?? To show everyone tt we're taught well and well disciplined?? We will be disciplined when there's a need to... Not a big issue to begin with, just a penny of thought that came along when I was about to type.

Next week brings in Field Camp. Gonna be screwed upside down and many other xiong xiong things bound to happen outfield. Will be a break of the comfort zone for many, while for those who got experience outfield, it wont pose much of a problem. Field Camp, my only worry is the food!! Haha definitely not enough to eat since it's really heavy to carry alot of food in the field pack. Some bugs and "others" might come to disturb our sleep and put up for the 4 day 3 nights. Might wanna plead them to excuse us for the 4 days 3 nights outfield. All the best Raven 3!!

Got into a little fight with my bunkmate over some lame matter. Haha, 18 year olds have their childish side too. Things shld get better alr... hopefully.... =) Other than tt I am fine with section... Still shouting and screaming vulgarities all over the place and blasting techno and pop music day and night!!

Tired tired, shall catch some sleep....

2006-05-06T15:33:00.000+08:00

Raven! Raven!

Tuned to U by S.E.S

Just got out of the intial 2 week confinement in P. Tekong. How has it been in there?? Well let me begin from the 1st step onto that island on 21 apr. Took the fastcraft aka ferry to Tekong. Neither my family members accompanied coz they were busy with their agenda. The time I entered the audi for the oath taking, that was the very time where regimentation took place. It definitely brought back memories when I was 'enlisted' to SJI NPCC in y2k. A recruit life's begins, one which is of a lower imptance as compared to a civilian.

BMT aka Basic Military Training, comprised of the necessary skills which a soldier must know at the basic level. Therefore, it's like some military exposure to become a soldier. 2 weeks was a long time to be on island of males, little CV entertainment. Routined lifestyles of exercising, training and improving self discipline, fitness and vigilance. We are well fed there therefore resulting in some to put on weight.

I missed many many things. An alternative meal of pizza or fast food was the 1st thing I missed. Chocolates!! The opportunity to roam freely around and to cool in a quiet environment. The Army is not a quiet place at all... Miss people too... Absence does make one's heart fonder... I believe that...

Enjoyment and waking up everyday at 5 plus in the morning with a bright smile is what I aimed for.

2006-04-20T11:39:00.000+08:00

Special update!!

Tuned to Bcoz of You by Kelly Clarkson

This is what I posted in 2003... (in smaller font)
What I feel now in 2006... (in Bold Font)

I AM: a 16 year old male who still has an inner child within me... /a 18 Male waiting to enter the army
I WANT: to share my life with someone.. /try to be a friend to all
I HAVE: those i need to have, be it my mental needs and materialistic needs /quite a lot of things to throw away
I WISH: for someone who can brighten mmy life and everyone elses' life /to go more places arnd Asia
I HATE: being picked on, misunderstood /not being able to fulfill my desires
I MISS: the times which i have spent da past 16 years... /going out with my buddies
I FEAR: nothing but my own self./myself
I HEAR : the hitting of keys on da keyboard/ a song being played
I SEARCH: for my and someone elses' future whom i am gonna share with/ for a calm clear focused mind in me
I WONDER: how i will be troubled in days soon to come/ if I would get through the following years to come
I REGRET: that my life wasnt lived ever to the fullest/ that I made the wrong choice after O lvls
I LOVE: everyone who wants to be loved/ those who or which have helped me
I ACHE: after a day of outdoor activities ranging from Sports to a Shopping Spree/after exercising
I ALWAYS: try to be like someone else.. but fail/ try to act seh...
I ADMIRE: those who respect themselves/ those who can outshine others without magic
I AM NOT: someone to mess around me esp with my very hot temper/ simple minded
I DANCE: in eurobeat, trance and JPOP music rhythm/ in the music and beat being played
I SING: anywhere and anytime/ to myself
I CRY: often when everything seem to be turning against me/ when I have failed myself
I AM NOT ALWAYS: hot tempered/ cool
I WRITE: what i feel needs to jotted to my death/ what I want to
I LOSE: my sleep easily.../ my cool easily
I CONFUSE: people when i start speaking long sentences and with the Japanese speed/myself many times
I NEED: someone to prove me wrong of what i think of myself/ the truth
I SHOULD: getting real in life/think less
MY DESKTOP SHOWS: Deathscyte Hell Gundam / this very screen...
BOOK I'M READING: Psychology books/ none in particular
ON MY MOUSEPAD: Tomb Raider/ SONY
WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD: Having make silly mistakes/ failing myself and others
1ST THING I THINK OF WHEN I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING: Good Morning everyone/ where to now?
RINGS BEFORE I ANSWER THE PHONE: one /one
DO I LIKE MY NAME? Yes i do esp with its unique meaning/ yes... very much
DO I DRIVE FAST?: I drive over 320km/h on Daytona/ havent got my license yet..
WORST DISASTER I FEAR: to loose my life before fulfilling my dreams/ injuries
MY 1ST CAR: Little tikes 4 week bike/ Evo 3 on Initial D
IF I COULD HAVE ANY JOB IT'D BE: Interior Designer/ Tour Guide
HAIR LONG OR SHORT?: Long/ Long
IS THE GLASS HALF-EMPTY OR HALF-FULL? I like it just right.../ dont get it...
DO I TYPE WITH MY FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS? huh?? i use both hands to type/ yeah of coz
WHAT'S UNDER MY BED? a mattresss, beret??/ Another Bed
ON MY NIGHTSTAND: nothing??/ what's tt?? one night stand?? havent done it before
PILLOWS ON MY BED: 1/ 1
IN CASE OF FIRE I'LL TAKE: my nightstand : my hp to call the fire truck/ the fire extinguisher and start using it
BEST INVENTION EVER: human life given to Earth/ lights
DO I SAY MY PRAYERS? always/ sometimes
MINUTES SPENT IN THE SHOWER: shower always more than 1 and less than 5 min/ depends
MY BEST ASSET: my eyes/ no asset in particular
JEWELLERY I WEAR: necklace, earring, rings, bracelet/ earring
WHAT I ATE FOR B/FAST: Crackers and Almond Drink with Ginseng/ nothing
IF I WERE A CARTOON CHARACTER : Pilot of a Gundam/ Char Aznable
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Yes Or No...x.
You keep a diary: Yeahz, u can see from herex. / Used to
You like to cook: YuPz sure dox. / alil
You have a secret you have not shared with anyone: hmmm not sure, i tend to share some secrets some how...x. / probably
You believe in love: Maybe Might Be-/ yes I do
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The weirdest person you know: Wong Jun Jie??/ Chua Wei Li
The Loudest Person you Know: me!/ still me!
The Sexiest Person you Know: Harisu/ Son Yae Jin
The Cutest Person you Know: Ayumi Chan desuyo!/ BoA
Your closest friend(s): Guess many are close to me in a way or another =P/ same standards for everyone
The People that Know the Most about you: Xin and Gang ~ hahax dunnOe maybe my family knows me best, SJI NP MCM 03/ those whom I meet now and then
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Do You...?
Have a(any) crush(es): yes I do
Want to get married: yup/ yes I do
Get motion Sickness: Nope/no
Think you're a health freak: NoPe nt at all tell / a lil
UGet along with your parents: Sometimes yes, sometimes not at all/ try to always get along
Like thunderstorms: Yup/ not any more
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NATURAL HAIR COLOR: black
EYE COLOR: black
BIRTHPLACE: Mount Alvernia(dunno how to spell) Hospital, Singapore
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(FAVORITES )
DAY(s): Wednesday and Saturday/ weekends
MONTH(s): May!! November!!/ December
SONG(s): JPOP! Mando POP/ jpop, mando pop, classical, eurobeat
MOVIE: Anime, LOTR, Infernal affairs, Star wars and more!/ countless
SEASON: Winter/ spring
SPORT: Badminton, bowling, jogging/ jogging
VEGETABLE: Lettuce and Brocolli
TIME OF THE YEAR: None??/ time to slack
POSSESSION: Everyone whom i know/ computer, psp, hp
PLACE(S): my laboratory/ pubs and arcades
SPORT TO WATCH: Badminton, Table Tennis, Soccer/ racing, rally, badminton, soccer
COLOUR(S): blue!!! Silver/ red, blue
SOUNDS: Running water from a waterfall/ water, wind
SMELLS: Aroma from da Roasted meat/ food
MAGAZINE: Popteen, Gundam Ace/ Playboy?
BOARD GAME: Monopoly, Gam of Life, RisK!/ game of life, monopoly, mahjong?
NUMBER: 3
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( PREFERENCES )
COKE OR PEPSI: Coke/ coke
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT?: Cuddly Cuddly/ make out
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE?: Chocolate Can le!/ hot choc
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE?: Alcohol Choc is da BEST!/ white choc
CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? Vanni/ vanilla
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( IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU.... )
CRIED? NopEz. /no
HELPED SOMEONE? Think So... /no
BOUGHT SOMETHING? YeaH bought alot of things/yes
GOTTEN SICK? Sick of Singapore?/ always sick
GONE TO THE MOVIES? YuPZ, rugratz =S/ no
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? YupZ been out everyday for dinner last week/no
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? Wrote a 7 day journal entry!/ no
TALKED TO AN EX? YaHz?? chat online counted?/ no except text message and online chat
MISSED AN EX? Definitly NOT/ yes I do
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? OF COZ/ not anymore
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? I am always serious!/no
MISSED SOMEONE? Ehz, guesso /yes
HUGGED SOMEONE? DuhZ no.../ no
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? Nahz../no
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? Wunt want to .../no
FOUGHT WITH UR CAT? Siaoz, rather fight with cat woman/no

2006-04-20T00:04:00.000+08:00

It's about time...

Tuned to Cao Cao by Lin Jun Jie

I am getting alil anxious as the days pass and the day that I'll go camping on Tekong draws nearer. Not afraid or some sort of fear coz I dont think it should be problem to go though. In fact I might expect a breeze for me in NS. Well, I just hope I got everything I need, nothing less or more for the stay in. All the essentials... bla bla bla... Better get packing done soon!!

Been out wondering for the past few days. Well not that I dont have an agenda or anything but I call it wandering coz I am alone out there walking here and there. Went to get the stuff for stay, played my Sangokushi-taisen game at Bugis and Atrium arcade. Running around my estate. Something tt I think I wont get the chance to achieve is to go hiking from Bt Timah to Macritchie. Haha, probably becoz my mind tells me I am tired but my body says otherwise.. Hope to do tt soon, and hopefully with someone or some friends who are willing to!

Thanks to those whom I have met and afford to spend their precious time with me. Managed to catch a few shows the past few days like The Art of Seduction, a Korean Comedy which is pretty good and hilarious!! Also Take the Lead, another of those inspiring shows featuring Dancing and life story of Pierre Duliane (is he really around??) Good Shows!!

2006-04-10T13:03:00.000+08:00

Just alil bit, just a lil...

Tuned to End Roll by Hamasaki Ayumi

How has it been?? Well overnight mahjong at pris house was fun... Havent touched those tiles for a very long time since the last session at TPL's house. Back home on Sunday morning, caught some sleep in the afternoon.

Slipped and fell last saturday afternoon. It was when I was rushing to shut the windows in kitchen as rain was pouring in. Didnt notice tt the floor was wet and tada... fell on my back and head. Pain Pain Pain, my back still hurts and my neck is stiff. Cant sleep well at all. Hope it'll be get better soon....

Everyone else has entered the army... I will be going in soon. Need to do some preps before entering like getting my black specs and some items which I might aid my BMT. Time to spend money again... hah...

2006-04-03T11:08:00.000+08:00

Away for the Better... Nah... ... Maybe... (Part 2)

Tuned to Running In the 90's by Max Cover from Initial D

Finally got to Disneyland!! This is the 1st time in the 18 years that I stepped into a Disneyland. The initial feeling I got was that it was pretty small as compared to the themeparks I have visited in Korea like Everland and Lotte World which were much bigger. Many photos to be taken with your Fave Disney Chars like Mickey, Donald and Chip & Dale. However the Disneyland at HK caters to the young as there are many kiddy rides. The most thrilling ride would be the Space Mountain. Some highlights not to be missed are the in house shows and perfomances which are absolutely wonderful!! Spent quite abit to buy Disney merchandise!! ^^ A long and wonderful day spent with great and funny memories not to be forgotten!!

Day 3 was lame as there was the City Tour which i detest totally. The dim sum bfast didnt fill me a single bit coz the portion was small and very few dishes. So so so unlike what I had in Singapore!! Arghhh... Anyway went to the famous Victoria Peak for sightseeing where u can view the whole of HK under you. However, it was pretty foggy then so we cant really see much of HK. Proceeded to the Repulse Bay, named after HMS Repulse which got sunk in WW2 by the Japan's Navy back then. We even visited the Yacht Club in HK where we could see those rich's yacht parked there. Took a sampan ride along the coast which was a refreshing experience!! After lunch, we transit to Shen Zhen by train by the KCR Line. The train ride was pretty fast actually, slept on the journey since we didnt sleep much in the hotel the night before... Spent the evening after dinner at Dong Men to do abit of shopping there. Was there before with the China Gang during the last few nights of our trip and we shopped alot then too. ^^

The night at Hotel Felicity was a good stay as the room was more comfortable, spacious and had the necessary facilities we needed. However to call it 5 star is seriously unfit as compared to those in Singapore. Singapore's 4 star hotel can easily trash those in China. The City Tour in Shen Zhen was even more boring than that of HK. The Tour Guide seriously had a attitude problem... Well maybe coz the tour grp he had now didnt spend much or do anything, a bunch of slackers man!! haha tt's why he didnt have any interest in taking this group. However tt aint the attitude to take when u are the Tour Guide.

Took the train back to HK and we were back at our fave hotel!! haha, put our luggage down and proceeded to the City area of HK named Tsim Sha Tsui!! Yup many shops and the humongous shopping centre at Harbour City!! But the things are pretty expensive, just like Singapore coz everything was original!! Went over to Mong Kok area which was FILLED WITH SPORTS BRANDS shops!!! WoooHooo so so so many!! We were led there by a staff at the Quiksilver Store back at Kimberley Road.

The last day of HK, woke up pretty late. Headed down to Sham Shui Po to buy my headphones and earphones coz they sell it real cheap there but I dunno if it will last coz its not the real thing. Proceeded to Prince Edward where the shopping centre resembles Far East there with alot more than Chio Bus, even the shop tender looks great!! Haha the comics and model kit magazines there are really cheap coz they sell it at cost price with no transport fees unlike those at Kino... We were totally tired out by the walking during the 5 days trip and all that shopping and travelling... Phew...Back to the airport, bought a few stuff at DFS. And... Waaa Laaa back in Singapore, SIAN CIPUA, a step closer to Chiong Sua Days and also less Chio Bus around!! LOL

Harry's Pub is a pretty cool place to chill out. Its at Esplanade where gin, weili and I visited the other day.. NICE!!

2006-04-02T04:12:00.000+08:00

Away for the Better?? Nah... ... Maybe... ... (Part One)

Tuned to Remember Me by Leslie Parrish from Initial D

Been away for 5 days up North in Hong Kong from last Monday till Friday. This entry shall retell the happenings from my very own journey to HK. Left home on Sunday Night for Changi Airport. I failed to catch the last train to the Airport as I miscalculated the time needed to board the bus and transfer the train ride and stuff... Therefore I met tyt at tanah merah interchange to leave for Tampines station to transfer to Bus no. 27 to the airport. However it seemed tt the bus was out of service by then. It came with some luck or just coincidence tt we bumped into an airport staff who offered us a cab ride to the airport coz he didnt manage to the catch the bus too. Thanks dude!!

Met Tep soon after.. Had Popeyes Chicken Meal for supper and slept the around the terminal, while waiting for our entry to the plane as the plane ride was at 7.30am. Packet some mcmuffins on board the JetStar Airline. Well its JetStar once again with the small seats and no food. But luckily or rather unluckily the flight was about 3h20min... long... Had a nap since I couldnt catch much sleep at the terminal. Encountered some slight problems after touch down at HK Intl Airport coz I couldnt find my luggage, but found it after some time of search.

Went over to our hotel, known as Dorsett Seaview Hotel. It looked okay at the start however things started to get shitty from there as the room was very small, no wardrobe, no fridge and hardly any space to do nothing. Well, I started to give it a new nick "Tho Sai Shit View Hotel", tt explains it all. Had lunch of Char Siew Chicken Rice which was totally splendid, good food and big portions... NICE!!! Haha went around the area near our hotel and ended up at this shopping centre, Langham Place. It was HUGE, totally cool 13 storeys of shops, food and entertainment. We caught a movie of BrokeBack Mountain there which is of R21 in Sg. Cool show but I slept at the front since I was pretty shagged out...

Upon observing at Langham Place, HK girls are really cool and good looking!! They somehow all look pretty similar but the fashion trend there trash Sg's totally. You wont see many girls in Sg putting on make up when they go to school too huh... Yeah HK girls are generally better in looks. On the other hand, the guys look totally pansy, sissy, weak and even girly. There are couples when I thought that they were lesbos but they were actually str8 coz the guy looks like a Butch to me.... Dinner was over at a road side stall of zhu cao, which was great too...