Sometimes, I think that I know and understand __. So well till I know where my life could end with no remorse, with happiness and with a sense of satisfaction. Sometimes, I feel that I do not know __ at all, like a stranger, an outsider, a passer-by, a person whom fate didnt bring. I do not know why, why have I fallen so deep... So fucking deep in this pit of darkness lately... I placed too much hopes in something which I knew months back that it will never work out or happen. I knew it and I even told myself to end this misery, but I still held on to whatever frays that this very rope of hope might have to offer me. I feel so dumb and stupid for my relentless chase for nothing... Nothing... Things didnt reciprocate... I am disappointed...
I am angry, very frustrated with.... Myself... I am the one who needs to wake up, step in a reality again stop living this fairytale that's not happening for real. To think I can offer advice to your problems, I am laughing at myself coz I cant even solve mine. I am a JOKE, a living JOKE, a Friggin JOKE in reality...
What the fuck have I been doing I really wonder... To think I wanted to even ask __ that critical question...
I having feelings and I still am fond of ___ . Are you?
