Lots to say... I dont know where to start from but it's better to start with the event which left me the most impact 1st.. Betrayal, hypocripsy, bad mouthing, guess who the culprit?? imagine if its one of your parents who did this and said all the above to your relatives, how would you feel?? I certainly felt utterly back stabbed by her, for what she said... I went berserk last sunday and crying with anger, hatred and pain throughout the afternoon... I was totally out of control, fling everything to the ground, slamming the cupboards and walls, blasting my music till the whole block could hear, screaming and crying all at the same time... It was all linked to my job earlier I had after my A lvls, and it all started from there... ... (which I wont go into details of what happened then...)
Betrayal... Who do I trust now then?? anyone?? myself?? or not even a single one?? I dont know... I am a little lost now... give me some time... some guidance... some enlightenment....
Ended the A lvls with my last History Paper 2, which I totally blasted it... Now I really wonder will I do well for History by any chance?? Recalling back 21 nov 05, went out with some of my classmates to pepper lunch for a lunch meal... I went with a really gloomy attitude and I felt really troubled then... Anyway, its over and I have not thought about it since... let's just keep it tt way...
Then grad night came, it took lots of effort and pain to come out with my ideal outfit... Well it aint really an outfit, more like a costume I suppose... Haha I search for days thinking between a trenchcoat like I saw in maple story or my original plan, a vampire dress a like... Eventually it was the vamp outfit with black cape, weird face make up and spike hair do... I look pretty cool then... many thanks to jing xuan who helped in my make up process ^^ The fun part wasnt the dinner itself but the preparations where it was pretty fun and hasty styling hair and wearing the outfits... Alot of cool looking people that but I guess I was alil too outstanding then.. HAHA!!! Took a few pics here and there with ppl i know and dunno =S After the dinner was basically drinking and playing true and dare games like 'indian poker' created by alvin wu... Lamo game....
Well the morning after the grad nite was a pocket burner all thanks to alvin wu once more for his cheapskateness and crappy mentality... Went to kiliney kopitiam at marina square and guess what?? can guess?? haha.. I saw a girl, well she looks pretty ordinary to most people since she's a employee there but to me, she's one really cute and sweet looking girl whom I have grown fond off and noticed since... Fair skin, thin built, blonde pony tail hair, no glasses and a sweet smile all in a go... awwwww crap she's one hell of an eye candy!!! let's see what happens next....
been out in the day till evenings almost every now and then with my peeps and budds, using the com in the wee hours of 12 am - 7.30am, sleeping till 2pm thereafter... A new body clock adjusted to a new lifestyle where I dont see the mornings or the full sun... A vampiric lifestyle I suppose??
Had a few plans in mind to spend my holidays before entering the army, hope all goes well!!!
