As I steadily recover from what fever/sore throat/headaches etc for the past 2 days, I believed that a lot of things have slip pass me... Take SJI NPCC for eg, what's my course? what's my reason to be part of it? what have I done for it? Well, as I reflect back on CI BTC, I realized as a noob, I was pretty ON and enthusiastic of what's going around me.. Maybe I had directions of what to achieve then... and I havent set my targets this year for myself in the unit.. I wont go blabbering abt being a full CI and a senior elder to my new PCIs of D04 coz the rank really mean nothing once u realised that there's much to do besides claiming hours and getting ur forms signed... After accessing my yahoo mail just now, problems begin to surface as complains on NCOs and these and that, I was thinking about what went wrong... Well maybe I shldnt think in that way, rather think what has not been done to lead to this, and what can be done to prevent/improve...
Looking at the link which HO gave from a CHS CI, who had some grudges agt my unit's cadets' performance during NPDP trg, it seems that a member of the outside community have doubts about our performance. Frankly speaking, I do have reservations about the ability of my cadets as well as myself. With new approaches, directions, HO has stressed that we cannot be accquainted to those see us esp. in HQ. Our unit do not concentrate on quantity but rather quality. Yet, what is happening now does not reflect much on quality. I myself cannot keep my mouth shut. I feel there are factors inter related to form such judgements on us. Nevertheless, impression of others holds high. I think what's needed to be done is going back to basics of mannerism, attitudes and respect to solve that matter in how to be a better person before a better cadet.
My involvement, realised that it's beginning to tone down alot since the last Dec break. Why? I am not sure.. How, I am sure that I had been busy with CIP and stuff, as a result fail to attend meetings. What I question now is that, there's no way to check on the process and progress of the unit as minutes dont seem to be taken anymore. Is this for the better in the 21st century that we all possess super memories to keep track on our progress?? I dont the human mind works tt well even though vitamins, medical advancement can prove some help.
NCOs wise, I will not try to mention names of who's good and who's not. One thing's for sure, the sec 3 NCOs seem to have slacken off alot and I myself dont keep a good impression of them anymore. My words maybe biase since I m the Sec 2 CI. I found some change in attitudes of the Sec 3 ICs in the beginning of Feb.. Trainings are not planned properly. Taking lectures for eg, there are hiccups and screw ups reg. laptops, CDs, thus hindering the syllabus and progress. I dont know what's going on now and then.. Next, the RO and TP seem to be kept within the boundaries of SJI only, as I havent received the RO for a month and the TP in 2 weeks.. I cant wait till UTC to "help" you all as I do so by next training.
Relationship-wise, for the past few months, I learnt alot from what it should be and what it can be. Take my 4th one which I didnt quite receive the brk up well. Well, I shld have got over it a long time ago and I could have been happier a long time ago too. However, I chose to be negative and unreceptive to such an action and sulk over the past few months.. I am ready to tell myself, life's up and downs, without them, there's no meaning to live as it's times when you pull urself outta problems and troubles that u find meaning in. After learning from History too, there are no absolutaties in anything, same goes for relationships, break ups etc. At this point of time, it's great to think back the good times and bad times and laugh over them. =)
