Today, i abstain from most my work, didnt complete the history outline, research some stuff not in detail for Project Work.
Had weird thghts, mixed feelings over some things. Started the day normal, greetings asking about hw and something like tt. Then, started to ask Andrea for her Permanent Marker. Started drawing big, this slogan which was always used, "T-9 Whoosh!!" on my diary cover. Then fliped the pages, til where i saw 1T-09 with Ms Cheng Photo. Then, start recalling what happened then. During Maths Lecture today, sat with Chow today, though i couldnt really pay much attention to the lect, but the feeling is really different from the times i sit with my new class now... Chow was playing with his banana, smearing on Khai and Pai... The fun times i remembered then when Chow with us together with Pai, Laura, Esther, Jing Xuan, Kellie, Jansen and Maria...
All those good times and unforgetable moments are no longer impacts, but they are marks in my heart already. The ever Clownish and Playful Chow, egoistic, always confident and fun Chong Ying, fast and special Laura, chatty and lame joker Nai, wonderful make up artist Jing Xuan, Motherly Presence of Kellie, Loyal and True Jansen, vulgar and approachable Maria. Was looking thru the pics we took when we were in T9, brought but a immense sense of comfort and joy for a period of time....I know it's wrong to do this , but i shld not have ever started to compare T7 and T9, its unfair as i bet the newcomers are still somehow attached to their ex class...
Read Cla's blog, further confirmed my feelings were alright to be down and missing the old peeps. Saw the pics which we took and that really led to the time i was really feel like breaking into shambles and thrusting a sword through my heart...
My explains are be explained thru words here, actions always spk louder than words and a pict spks 1000 words.... First Cut is the Deepest has the perfect meanings of what I am feeling now...Yup... Come to think of it, it's not the class but rather the personalities and ppl who were replaced, which led me to this state uncertainty... Hope all will go well then...
